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Crazy

Do you ever get the impression that the world has gone completely crazy? Wisdom has left the building… the whole planet for that matter. I happened upon a comforting thought yesterday in the little book of Ephesians. Listen to this:

Speaking of Christ Jesus, it says. “Now He is far above any ruler, or authority, or power, or leader, or anything else- not only in this world, but also in the world to come. God has put all things under the authority of Christ.” -from Ephesians 1: 21,22

Apparently, I can rest in His wisdom. HE is in charge. I am not. Neither is anyone else really, no matter their title. This is not a political statement. It’s just a reminder from a Biblical point of view. Jesus Christ is above all earthly authority. Perhaps I should trust Him.

Remarkable!

Considering what the women had just witnessed, this little side note seems a bit far fetched. Matthew 28:8 says “they were frightened but also filled with great joy.” Yes Lord! I am afraid too. Please fill me with joy so that I can truly rest in You. For Your joy is my strength!

Amazing Truth

“WE! Out of all creation became His prized possession!”

-James 1:18

A Good Question

“If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and He will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. But when you ask Him, be sure that your faith is in God alone.” -James 1:5,6a

consider it an opportunity for great joy.

-from James chapter 1.

Easy preachin’, hard livin’.

“We are looking forward to a home yet to come. Therefore…

Let us offer through Jesus a continual sacrifice of praise to God;”

-Hebrews 13:14,15

God is Not Unjust

“He will not forget how hard you have worked for Him, and how you have shown your love for Him by caring for other believers as you still do.”

Hebrews 6:10

A Simple Prayer

“I know LORD that our lives are not our own. We are not able to plan our own course. So correct me LORD,

but please be gentle.” -Jeremiah 10:23,24

A Son is Given

Hello Dear Friends,

I hope you enjoy this little gift.

It’s a fictional account of the birth of Christ. I tried to keep it true to Scripture, then also to Jewish tradition. So grab a cup of coffee and be still for a minute… or perhaps thirty.

Merry Christmas and much love from our home to yours!

David and Lynna Clark

Prologue

It’s a miracle they married. Both were terribly shy. When he turned eighteen, his father Jacob began reminding him often that it was time to take a wife and add to the family. Good sturdy sons would help expand the carpentry business. Joseph smiled and nodded. He and his father already had someone in mind… if Joseph could just get up the nerve.

The thought of her warmed him. She was quiet and pretty and reminded him of a doe, tentatively checking her surroundings as if afraid of being noticed. Though they’d been raised in the same small village, their times of interaction had been too scarce for Joseph’s liking. He wished for an opportunity to draw her aside and express how he felt.

Finally one morning in the marketplace it happened. He’d made an excuse to be there hoping to see her. She was startled when he purposely bumped into her knocking the figs from her basket. Quickly they bent toward the ground together to retrieve the fruit before it was trampled.

“Forgive me Mary! Let me get those for you.” Joseph tried to appear unruffled just like he’d practiced in his head. He was rewarded with a shy smile. Mary looked up and tried to think of something to say.

“What brings you to the market today Josey?”

He was pleased that she used his boyhood name and decided to just go for it.

“Why you dear Mary! I was hoping to see you!”

Mary blushed as she tried to gather herself. Though she was veiled Joseph could tell he’d embarrassed her. Quietly he continued.

“I know that your father is not well. But do you think he is strong enough to receive visitors?”

Mary was surprised and blushed even deeper. Her reply took so long that Joseph’s heart pounded while he waited.

“Yes,” she finally managed. Again she looked into the eyes of her childhood friend. His gentleness had always comforted her when other young men seemed boisterous and proud. Suddenly it occurred to her how much she liked him. Hopefully he would speak to her father soon as there had been another suitor who had visited a few days earlier. Thankfully she had sent him away since her father had been too weak that day. She smiled to herself and silently thanked the Lord for His kindness. Joseph’s gentle question broke into her thoughts.

“Should I wait until he feels better?”

Mary was alarmed. If Joseph waited the other suitor might win her father’s favor. Though Simon was financially well off and highly regarded amongst the temple rulers, he was also rather arrogant. She had a feeling her status as his wife would be somewhat of a business transaction.

But Joseph…

She realized the man still waited for her reply. When her eyes met his she knew. “Please come at your earliest convenience. My father grows weaker each day and he will be thankful to receive you.”

Joseph was encouraged. Though she bowed slightly and moved away, her glance back at him gave wings to his feet. There was urgency in her request that seemed to be about more than her father’s health.

Joseph hurried home to speak to his own father. God willing, he would pursue this gentle girl before the sun set in the Nazareth sky.

Chapter One

When Mary returned home she was surprised to find Simon talking with her father. Plus he had brought gifts; extravagant ones: fine jewelry, wine, lovely clothes and of course a contract. Her father seemed thrilled to share the news.

“Our friend Simon has come to ask if he may seek your hand in marriage. I assured him you would welcome his generous offer. Shall we proceed with the betrothal ceremony my daughter?”

Mary wondered how to answer without breaking her father’s heart. He had expressed many times his desire to see her betrothed before his life ended.

But Simon was not her first love.

With resolve she looked at Simon. His clothing confirmed his wealth and she wondered why he’d chosen her, a simple peasant girl. It would be a huge insult to reject his proposal.

“Forgive me my lord. I must decline your offer. There is another in my life who has expressed his intentions before you. But I shall forever be thankful for your kindness and generosity.”

Apparently Simon was not accustomed to rejection. His face turned bright red and his expression changed immediately. Instead of his normal look of confidence, he now wore a smirk. An insult lingered on the tip of his tongue but Mary saved him from it.

“Please accept my gratitude. The gifts you brought are exquisite. It pains me to return such treasure.” She closed the beautiful box containing the garnet necklace and ring. As she placed the box in his hand she bowed without looking into his eyes.

Saying nothing, he gathered his lavish gifts, turned on his heel and exited the small home.

Mary’s father sat heavily on his bed and began to cough. She fetched water and sat beside him stroking his back. Though his cough calmed, he said nothing.

She whispered in the old man’s ear.

“I love you dear Abba. But Simon is not the man for me. The Lord our God is mighty! He will provide.”

Old Heli took his daughter’s hand. The girl always amazed him with her strength. Though it would have relieved his worry to have her betrothed to a man of wealth and high standing, he was strangely comforted that she turned Simon away. Perhaps like him, his daughter would marry for love.

Chapter Two

Her only sister had married and moved to the home of her husband a few years earlier. The Lord had already blessed the couple with a son and a daughter. Since Mary’s mother had passed away, the care of her father was left in her hands. Mary adored the old man and suspected his ill health was due to the loss of his wife. Such love was shared between them that she longed for the same. The family had been through many hardships and had always struggled to keep food on the table. But their meager home was filled with joy. Having no sons, Heli was determined to teach his daughters the Word of God. Mary was his best student and daily sat at his feet soaking in the beautiful words. Her favorite came from the Psalms as her father often chose to sing them to her.

“Are you strong enough to bless me with a song tonight dear Abba?”

Heli looked at his innocent daughter and wondered if she realized the grand life she had turned away earlier in the day. He also wondered about the other suitor she referred to when she refused Simon’s offer.

“How can I say no to such a beautiful girl? Which would you like to hear?”

Mary smiled as she requested one of her favorites. “Sing to me a song of our father David. The one that starts with ‘Let all that I am praise the LORD; with my whole heart, I will praise His holy Name!’”

Heli joined her and together they continued.

“Let all that I am praise the LORD; may I never forget the good things He does for me. He forgives all my sins and heals all my diseases. He redeems me from death and crowns me with love and tender mercies. He fills my life with good things. My youth is renewed like the eagle’s!”

Mary gazed at her father and was happy to see that his smile had returned as well as a measure of strength while they sang the beautiful song. They continued with vigor and she smiled brightly when they came to the lovely words.

“The Lord is like a father to his children, tender and compassionate to those who fear Him. For He knows how weak we are; He remembers we are only dust. Our days on earth are like grass; like wildflowers, we bloom and die. The wind blows and we are gone- as though we had never been here. But the love of the LORD remains forever with those who fear Him. His salvation extends to the children’s children of those who are faithful to His covenant, of those who obey his commandments!”

She paused as though she couldn’t remember the next lines so that she could enjoy the voice of her father. Heartily he continued.

“The LORD has made the heavens His throne; from there He rules over everything. Praise the LORD, you angels, you mighty ones who carry out His plans, listening for each of His commands. Yes praise the LORD, you armies of angels who serve Him and do His will. Praise the LORD, everything He has created, everything in all His kingdom!”

Mary joined him with beautiful harmony on the last line.

“Let all that I am praise the LORD!”

Their voices could be heard through the door where Joseph and his father stood listening to the wonderful psalm. The lovely girl he had teased in his youth was hopefully about to become his wife.

Chapter Three

The soft knock on the door caused Mary’s heart to flutter. To her delight it was Joseph with his father Jacob. “Is Heli well enough to receive us?”

Joseph was happy when Mary ushered them inside. “Yes! He is feeling the strength of a soaring eagle! Come! Would you like something to eat?”

Joseph was glad that she seemed to relax in her own home. He felt a bit more at ease there too. But he hesitated to eat lest he choke before asking the question.

“A little water would be nice.”

Mary smiled at his gentle request as she noticed again his timidity. “Of course! Father, this is my friend Joseph and his father Jacob. Do you remember Josey from our youth?”

Heli nodded knowingly. The young man had shot up like a tender reed. Joseph had often walked Mary and her sister home as the three of them grew up together.

“Yes, come sit with me! Mary brought fresh fruit from the market today and blessed this old man with delicious fig cakes. Just like Abigail brought to David, they are fit for a king! Sit my friends and have some!”

Mary smiled at her father’s enthusiasm and served their guests. Joseph relaxed a little more and took a bite. “Oh!” he exclaimed. “As you so accurately said, fit for a king!” He sipped his water and silently summoned the Almighty for strength.

The room became quiet for longer than any of them liked. Jacob wondered how long it would take his son to broach the subject as he had asked to handle the matter himself. Without saying a word, Joseph stood as if leaving. Mary’s heart dropped and old Heli wondered how to help. Still saying nothing Joseph stepped outside for a breath of fresh air. Heli stole a glance at his kindhearted daughter and saw her disappointment. She obviously had deep affection for the young man.

Before any of them could speak, Joseph returned. Slowly he presented the mohar to Heli: wedding coins, a marriage contract plus a skin of wine. Humbly Joseph bowed. “I’ve come to ask for your daughter Mary to be my wife.”

With tears of joy, old Heli looked toward Mary. She smiled and nodded her approval.

Joseph then offered his gift to Mary. “I made this for you. I hope to fill it with treasure someday.”

Mary received the box and admired the intricate carvings. “Oh Josey! I can think of nothing I would like more than a gift made by your own hand. It’s beautiful!”

Heli smiled as he observed young Joseph. “I have very little to offer, but what I have is yours. Will you dear Mary be my wife?”

Mary looked at her father. “May we have your blessing Abba?”

Heli and Jacob stood, embraced their children, then each other. Once Heli found his voice he pronounced a blessing on the union which of course included a prayer for many children.

“You have made an old man very happy Joseph! I know you will be good to my daughter.  May the Lord bless you and keep you my son. Now for the wine!” He poured from the wineskin Joseph brought and presented the cups. When the four of them shared wine, the betrothal was sealed. Through her veil, Joseph gazed into Mary’s kind and beautiful eyes. He was more convinced than ever that he had chosen well.

“Please accept this ring as my pledge. I am yours and you are mine. Many waters cannot quench love, nor can rivers drown it.”

She repeated the words in sweet agreement as they dreamed of their future together. “I accept this ring and pledge the same. I am yours and you are mine. Many waters cannot quench love, nor can rivers drown it.”

Joseph placed a ring on the index finger of Mary’s right hand for the world to see. This beautiful girl he had loved since his youth was officially pledged to be his wife.

“I go to my father’s house to prepare a home that we may dwell together as husband and wife. Behold you are consecrated unto me with this ring according to the laws of Moses and Israel. I promise to be faithful, to love and protect you all the days of my life.”

Mary smiled knowing that his promises were true.

Jacob signed the contract and gave it to Heli for safe keeping. The two proud fathers shared another embrace knowing their children had chosen well.

Joseph drew Mary aside as he prepared to leave.

“You are lovely tonight my bride. My brothers are all envious and have warned me to get our home built quickly lest you back out of such a humble offer.”

Mary shook her head. “Never dear Josey! I am my beloved’s and you are mine. Many waters cannot quench love.”

Joseph kissed the ring on her finger. “I will miss you my doe. I have assigned our brother Abel to watch over you until I come. So be ready! I will be back for you sooner than you think!”

Mary gazed into the eyes of her groom. “May everything be according to your word!”

Chapter Four

Mary rose early the next morning and walked the short distance across the village to her sister’s home. She shared the news and the two young women hugged as they considered raising their families together. Traditionally a groom took twelve months to complete the home. Then he would gather his companions, shout to announce his coming, and collect his bride.

“I hope Joseph doesn’t plan a long betrothal. Father grows weaker each day. I’d love to hear him speak a blessing on our wedding day.”

Suzanna teased, “Not to mention, the sooner you two get started the closer our children will be!”

Mary laughed and blushed a little. “I’ve always thought so much of Joseph. His family is almost as poor as ours, but he is such a gentleman. Did you know he assigned your husband Abel as my guardian?”

Suzanna sighed. “No! The man tells me nothing! Just wait til he returns this evening!”

The sisters shared a laugh then Mary continued. “Simon also stopped by yesterday. I couldn’t look at him though father was delighted at his offer. If he only knew how forward the man is, he would not have been so eager to invite Simon into my life.”

Suzanna caught her breath as she expressed concern for her little sister. “Mary! You turned that rascal away? Surely you know he will not give up easily!”

Mary shook her head. “I have no idea why he would want a peasant girl like me anyway. Women flock to his wealth and power. I would rather live in a stable than to share his bed.” She shivered at the thought.

Her sister laughed. “If you marry Joseph, you may just get your wish. I had a feeling Joseph would ask. He’s looked at you like a lovesick schoolboy for years.”

Mary smiled. “I’m afraid I’ve looked at him the same. I just never knew that he noticed until yesterday.”

“Of course he noticed! You my little sister are beautiful! THAT is why Simon seeks you. No one matches your beauty whether rich or poor. I’m glad you refused him! But please be careful. I’ve heard terrible things about him. He did not rise to such power and wealth through kindness. In fact, as pleasant as our visit has been, let’s get you packed and on your way home before it grows any later.”

Chapter Five

As strong and vibrant as Heli was for the betrothal ceremony, Mary took hope that perhaps he was recovering. He spoke often of her and Joseph’s future and seemed to relish telling stories of his own marriage. Mary loved their time together and grew hopeful that perhaps her beloved Abba would live to see her wedding day.

But it was not to be.

She returned from the market several months later to find that dear Heli gasped for air. She held his hand and tried to smile. “Rest in the words of our father David my beloved Abba.

‘The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside still waters; He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for His Name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.’”

Gazing beyond his daughter to the God he had humbly served for a lifetime, Heli smiled and breathed his last. Peace flooded his old soul as he shed his earthly tent and joined the wife of his youth. Though the light in his eyes was gone, the smile on his lips told the truth. He was free from the chains of suffering and pain.

Mary sobbed into her father’s chest but whispered a prayer of thanksgiving that he no longer struggled for air.

As was customary, Heli was washed and prepared for burial that same day then placed in the family tomb. Mary’s grief was nearly unbearable though she was surrounded by friends and neighbors. Joseph grieved her loss but felt ashamed for his own unhappiness. He knew his sadness was more about postponing the wedding than losing Heli. Though it had been three months since the betrothal, he must now wait at least a year to claim his bride.

“Take heart my son!” Jacob tried to encourage him. “She will be your wife forever! This gives us more time to make your new home something very special.”

Joseph nodded and busied himself with his work. His father was right. Mary had lived such a meager life. With his father’s help he could provide a home worthy of her.

While Joseph threw himself into his work he remembered a story of long ago. Another Jacob, son of Isaac, had labored seven long years for Rachel. After his wedding night he discovered he had been given her sister Leah. Jacob worked seven more years to obtain his true love. Joseph sighed and thanked the Almighty that Mary’s only sister was already married.

He shook the thought from his head. No man should try to please two women!

But sweet Mary…

He smiled at the thought of her as he remembered the line from the Torah about Jacob. “Though he worked seven years for her, his love was so strong that it seemed but a moment.”

Joseph determined to do the same. No matter how long it took, nor whatever the circumstances, his love for Mary would overcome it all.

Chapter Six

For Mary the days passed slowly. Meals of consolation from friends and neighbors poured in for seven days. Suzanna and her husband kept Mary company the first week of mourning then returned home. Suddenly she realized how alone she felt. Everything reminded Mary of her father and mother. Her parents had so faithfully taught her the Word of God that most evenings were spent recalling their favorite passages. Night after night she found herself lying in bed crying out those same words to the Lord.

She longed for comfort and thought of Joseph. Though there were only three months left in the bereavement period, she wondered if she could endure that long. Her sadness was overwhelming. She listened for his shout every evening just in case he decided to come early. But knowing Joseph he would respect the tradition of grieving the loss of a parent for twelve months. His family was all about honor, tradition, and protecting the family name.

That was part of her attraction to him. Joseph was indeed a very good man.

She readied herself for bed and turned in early. The sun had not even set but she didn’t care. The cupboards were as empty as her soul. It mattered not as she had lost her appetite weeks ago.

A knock came at the door. Mary was startled and checked before answering.

No one was there.

Carefully she looked again. A basket filled with delicacies had been placed by the door. As she brought the wonderful food inside she wondered who would be so kind. She smiled at the thought of Joseph. Surely it was him.

She peered through the door again but failed to see the man in the shadows. With the latch returned to its place, she carried the basket to the table. There was enough food to last for over a week! She praised God not only for His provision, but also that she would have no need to leave her home for days.

Except for Joseph, she preferred solitude. It seemed the Almighty was preparing her soul for something ahead. A favorite Psalm came to mind so she sang it out loud.

“The LORD is like a Father to His children, tender and compassionate to those who fear Him. For He knows how weak we are; He remembers we are only dust.”

Chapter Seven

As Joseph walked toward home he hoped the gift would comfort his fiancée. He knew from her sister that Mary was lonely and terribly sad. He considered speaking to his father about the possibility of bringing her home to wed before the bereavement period was over. As her husband he could comfort her and make sure she was cared for. Perhaps the Lord would bless them with a child right away. They could name him Heli after her father and honor his good name.

Joseph walked a bit faster as he thought on his plan. The house he prepared for Mary was complete except for a few last minute touches. His father had diligently helped him add the new rooms to the family home. He would understand and might even support Joseph breaking tradition.

But his mother…

Joseph shivered a little. She would not be pleased. The wedding feast was a really big deal to her and she had much left to prepare. In fact she seemed glad to have more time to gather everything needed for the upcoming celebration. Since Joseph was the youngest of her sons it would be her last wedding feast to host.

As Joseph thought on everything he decided to do what was best for Mary. The sight of her as she answered her door had made him happy. But then she had looked up, searching for the gift giver. Her lovely face was drawn and sad. Joseph felt an urgent need to take care of her like never before. His mother would have to understand. Perhaps his father would help with that.

Joseph breathed a prayer for Mary as he made his way home.

“As our father Moses said: ‘Give us gladness in proportion to our former misery! Replace the evil years with good.  Let us, Your servants, see You work again; let our children see Your glory. And may the Lord our God show us His approval, and make our efforts successful. Yes, make our efforts successful!’”

Chapter Eight

Mary enjoyed a fig cake and thought of her betrothal day. Her father had been so happy. She looked at the simple ring on her finger and recalled dear Joseph as he asked her to be his bride. Peace flooded her soul and she thanked the Almighty for His kindness and comfort.

As she put the food away, suddenly the small room was filled with warmth and light. A very large man stood before her. Mary’s heart pounded as she took in his presence.

“Greetings favored woman! The Lord is with you!”

She gazed at the heavenly being and realized her mouth was open. Her heart still pounded as she thought on his words and tried to understand what he meant.

Though he was obviously powerful she marveled at his gentleness when he spoke again.

“Don’t be afraid Mary, for you have found favor with God.”

There was that word again. What had she done to gain favor? The angel continued.

“You will conceive and give birth to a Son and you will name Him Jesus. He will be very great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give Him the throne of His ancestor David. And He will reign over Israel forever; His Kingdom will never end!”

Mary thought on the words then finally found her voice. She blushed as she asked the obvious.

“But… how, how can this happen… since, I am a virgin?”

The angel softly replied, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the Baby to be born will be holy, and He will be called the Son of God.”

Mary sat down. Her head was spinning. The angel waited as if allowing her to take it all in. Quietly he continued.

“What’s more, your relative Elizabeth is going to have a child in her old age! People used to say she was barren, but she has conceived a son and is now in her sixth month.”

The angel smiled broadly when he added. “For nothing is impossible with God!”

Mary returned his smile and joy flooded her soul.

“I am the Lord’s servant! May everything you have said about me come true!”

The angel disappeared as quickly as he had come. Mary was left alone with her thoughts while she searched her memory for Scripture about the Messiah.

Chapter Nine

When Joseph arrived home he was disappointed to find his father occupied with the family meal. His brothers gathered around the table laughing and talking. His mother greeted him with a hug as well as a scolding.

“Where were you my son? I was beginning to worry!”

Joseph kissed his mother’s cheek as he caught the eye of his father. They shared a smile knowing her question was more about gaining information than real concern. The woman struggled to let go of her youngest though he was most certainly a grown man.

“Dear woman, I was delivering a basket of supplies to Mary. She is going through a very difficult time you know. Though her father passed nearly nine months ago she is still very sad.”

Joseph’s mother eyed him curiously. “And how do you know her condition? It is not permitted for you to visit her alone!”

Joseph’s brothers laughed heartily at that. But with one look their mother silenced them. Joseph assured his mother.

“Her sister Suzanna sought me out so that I would know she does not fare well. I gathered a few things for Mary and left them by her door. We did not even speak.”

His mother noticed Joseph’s sadness and determined to comfort him with a huge helping of food. “Come! Eat! Her time of grief will be over in three short months and there is still much to do! You would be wise to fill your belly with good food while you can. Mary is much too beautiful to know how to cook properly!”

Joseph laughed at his mother’s attempt to comfort him, especially when she realized she had just insulted her other daughters-in-law. Feisty Miriam spoke up with mischief.

“Thankfully I am so ugly my husband will never go hungry!”

At that the family laughed and relaxed around their evening meal.

Chapter Ten

The moment she closed her eyes she fell into a wonderful peaceful rest. In her dreams she recalled Adam’s deep sleep as God removed a rib to form the woman who would complete him. Mary smiled and thought on the goodness of God. Throughout history young women had dreamed of bringing the Messiah into the world to save their people. For some unknown reason, she had found favor and would bear His Son.

When she woke she knew exactly what to do. Quickly she packed and headed to her sister’s home. Suzanna’s husband Abel was just leaving and was surprised to see Mary.

“You’re out early today little one! And you look like you’re on a mission. Are you feeling better?”

Mary smiled. “Yes! I’ve decided to visit our Aunt Elizabeth for a while. Can you make sure Joseph knows so he doesn’t worry?”

Abel tipped his head. He was concerned for this young woman he’d grown to love as his sister. “I will… but are you sure you want to travel so far? It’s nearly time for your wedding.”

Mary nodded. “There are three months left to grieve for father. I should be back by the end of that time. Judea is only a five day journey.”

Abel hesitated. “Surely you have traveling companions…”

Suzanna came from the house with a baby on one hip and a toddler clinging to her skirt. “Catch me up sister. You’re going where?”

Mary hoped her sister wouldn’t detect the joy she found hard to contain. Suzanna was always the best at dragging secrets from her soul.

“I feel the Lord wants me to spend time with Aunt Elizabeth. She is so dear and she’s certainly not getting any younger. Besides, it’s still three months until the wedding and I’m not doing well in the old house without father.”

Suzanna gazed at her younger sibling intently. She was sure the girl was hiding something. Trying to get more information she asked, “Does Joseph know you are going? He’s not going with you is he?”

Mary was shocked. “No! Of course not! I haven’t spoken to Josey. But Abel has promised to let him know where I am. Now, I must be on my way if I’m going to catch up with the caravan headed to Judea.”

Chapter Eleven

Mary kissed her sister and headed toward the town square. She looked through the crowd hoping she would know some of the other travelers. Though she had made the trip before, it had always included her father. Suddenly fear gripped her heart. At least she had provision for the journey thanks to Joseph.

She wished very much to speak to him before she left. Her beautiful secret would certainly involve him too. As she made her way through the people a thousand thoughts filled her mind.

“In the multitude of my thoughts within me Lord, Thy comforts delight my soul.”

Trying to be brave she whispered, “Guide me O Thou great Jehovah!”

Somehow she bumped right into him.

“Josey!” she laughed at the look on his face.

He motioned her to the side under a sycamore tree where they could speak face to face. “Sweet Mary! What brings you into town on the busiest day of the week? And why do you carry so many bags?” He began taking things from her shoulders trying to help.

She could hardly keep from reaching out to him. This dear man meant everything to her, yet she had no idea how he would react to the news.

Mary placed the rest of her supplies on the ground beside her and silently asked the Lord for help. “Joseph, I need to visit my Aunt Elizabeth right away. But I’ll be back in three months. I promise!”

Joseph grew somber and looked into her eyes. “You’re going all the way to the Judean hill country? What’s the matter? Has old Zechariah finally passed?”

Mary shook her head. “No, I think he’s… doing very well!”

She wondered how much to say. Then she realized. Her news would have to come out sometime. Joseph might as well be the first to know.

She sat down on one of her bags. Joseph took a seat on the wooden crate in front of her. He could tell she struggled but he was not prepared for what she said next.

“Joseph, I had an angel visit last night.” Mary peered into his eyes trying to read him. Joseph tipped his head slightly but said nothing. Mary slowly continued.

“He said he’d been sent by God to let me know…”

She couldn’t say the words.

Joseph interrupted her thoughts.

“Did you eat too much garlic and gefilte fish before bedtime? That stuff can make you have all kinds of crazy dreams. Don’t go running off to Judea to your old Aunt Elizabeth. God has not even blessed them with children so something’s not right in that household. I know you’re grieving, but I’ve spoken to my father and if you’re willing, we can break tradition and get married before the bereavement period is over. I want to take care of you! And I sure can’t do that if you’re half a countryside away!”

Mary glanced past Joseph to make sure the caravan didn’t leave without her. She felt the nudging in her soul to get it over with. It must be said.

“Joseph, stop. It was a real angel… huge! He informed me that Aunt Elizabeth has conceived in her old age and will bear a son in three months. I’m going to help her. And…”

Mary realized she had Joseph’s attention.

“I have been chosen to bear the Son of God… our Messiah!”

Joseph hardly knew what to say. Quietly he whispered. “Oh Mary! How wonderful! Should we get married right away? I mean, obviously the Almighty knows we are betrothed!”

Mary teared up and struggled to speak. The words of the angel explained it best so when they came back to her she repeated them to Joseph.

“The angel said I will conceive and give birth to a Son and name Him Jesus. When I asked him how that could happen since I am a virgin, he said ‘The Holy Spirit will come upon you and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the Baby to be born will be holy, and He will be called the Son of God.’”

She looked at Joseph as she added. “It seems important that I remain a virgin until after the baby is born. There is a prophecy in the book of Isaiah which promises a Son of the Most High Who will be born of a virgin. I don’t know how… or when… I just know enough to say yes to the Almighty.”

The reality of what his fiancée had spoken finally hit him. This would not be his son.

He couldn’t speak.

A commotion down the street caught their attention. Mary stood and began gathering her things. “I’m sorry Josey. I have to go. But I’ll be back soon!” She smiled tentatively and tried to get him to look at her. But he wouldn’t.

Instead he finished gathering her things and walked with her to the manager of the caravan. As he pulled coins from his pouch and handed them to the man he added, “Take good care of her please. Good-bye Mary.”

Joseph turned and walked away without looking back. His heart was broken. Apparently Mary had been unfaithful and this was her way of covering the truth. No wonder she had stayed ill so many months after her father’s passing.

There had been another.

Chapter Twelve

Since she still wore the clothing of bereavement it did not seem unusual for the young woman to shed tears.

There were many.

Mary knew she was being treated especially courteous by those traveling with her. She recognized some from her hometown but appreciated the caravan leader most of all. He and his wife seemed to take Joseph’s words to heart. In less than a week she gained safe passage to the Judean hills where her relatives made their home.

But her heart was with Joseph. She wondered if she had lost him forever. What man would believe the words she had spoken? Plus his good-bye had seemed so final.

Perhaps her Aunt Elizabeth would help her make sense of it all.

As she entered the house she spoke a greeting and was surprised at Elizabeth’s response. Joyfully her elderly aunt cried out. “God has blessed you above all women, and your child is blessed! Why am I so honored that the mother of my Lord should visit me? When I heard your greeting, the baby in my womb leaped for joy. You are blessed because you believed that the Lord would do what He said!”

The two unlikely mothers hugged each other and laughed. Mary felt as if her heart might explode with praise if she kept silent any longer. Nearly shouting she cried,

“Oh, how my soul praises the Lord! How my spirit rejoices in God my Savior! For He took notice of His lowly servant girl and from now on all generations will call me blessed! For the Mighty One is holy, and He has done great things for me. He shows mercy from generation to generation to all who fear Him. His mighty arm has done tremendous things! He has scattered the proud and haughty ones. He has brought down princes from their thrones and exalted the humble. He has filled the hungry with good things and sent the rich away with empty hands. He has helped His servant Israel and remembered to be merciful. For He made this promise to our ancestors, to Abraham and his children forever!”

Together the women cried tears of joy then laughed as Elizabeth placed Mary’s hand over the baby who continued to jump for joy in her tummy.

Elizabeth asked her young relative as she led her to sit down. “How far along are you dear?”

Mary was glad to finally be able to talk about her heavenly visitor. “The angel came to me with the news only seven days ago. I traveled here right away since I knew you would understand. He said you are in your sixth month so I was hoping to stay with you until your son is born. Maybe I can be of some help to you. Plus my time of mourning my father’s passing will be over. By then maybe Joseph will know if he wants to follow through with our marriage.”

Elizabeth peered into Mary’s eyes. “So you have told Joseph? Does he understand that you carry the very Son of God?”

Mary shook her head slowly. “He knows that the baby is not his since we have not yet been together as husband and wife. But I’m afraid he thinks there has been another. He was very sad when I told him the news. My heart aches to think he could consider me unfaithful. On the journey here I prayed that the Lord would comfort him. Only our heavenly Father can give Josey peace. I trust that with the miracle of bearing God’s Son, He will provide everything needed, even a husband to care for us.”

Elizabeth hugged her young “daughter” and held her tongue. If word got out of Mary’s pregnancy, the girl could be in grave danger. The law specifically demanded that an adulterous woman should be stoned to death. Surely God had a plan.

Though Elizabeth spoke not a word of her fears, Mary knew the law very well. She comforted Elizabeth with the same comfort with which she assured herself.

“If we make the Lord our refuge, if we make the Most High our shelter, no evil will conquer; no plague will come near our home; for He will order His angels to protect us wherever we go!”

Tears slipped down the face of the Godly old woman. “Yes my beloved sister. You are blessed because you believe that the Lord will do what He says! That is a rare quality and likely the reason you have been chosen to bear the Savior!”

Chapter Thirteen

Joseph seemed to carry the weight of the whole world on his shoulders. Though broad, they slumped with sadness. Dutifully he finished the home he had so lovingly prepared for Mary. But he doubted she would ever live there. He wondered whether to speak to his father about the things Mary told him. Only a few days earlier Joseph had convinced him to talk to his mother about going ahead with the wedding. Now it was impossible. Not only had Mary left Nazareth, but she had also confessed to carrying a child.

His father’s cheerful tone broke through Joseph’s misery.

“Good news my son! I have spoken to your mother and all is ready! How would you feel about claiming your beautiful bride tomorrow at sundown? Is a day enough time to make yourself presentable to the girl of your dreams?”

His father Jacob seemed as excited as Joseph had been earlier.

He wondered what to say. He must be careful. Mary’s honor and perhaps even her life depended on it. Though it was hard to admit, Joseph still loved her very much.

“I’m sorry father. Mary has gone to be with her Aunt Elizabeth for a few months… at least until the bereavement year for her father is finished. So no wedding feast tomorrow. But please thank mother for me.”

Jacob realized his son avoided looking at him and even continued as if too busy to talk about the matter. Something was amiss. Perhaps his youngest had cold feet. Otherwise, why would he allow Mary to make such a journey so close to the wedding?

He put his arm about Joseph’s shoulders and noticed his sadness. “Talk to me son. What’s going on?”

Joseph sighed. Surely his father could be trusted in such a delicate matter. Besides, the man had wisdom far beyond what Joseph could hope for. He looked into his father’s eyes searching for help.

Recognizing the hesitation of the young man before him, Jacob encouraged his youngest to speak. “As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another. Speak my son. Whatever is on your mind, I assure you I have been there before.”

Joseph managed a laugh then a deep sigh.

“It’s Mary. She said an angel visited her.”

Jacob was surprised. “Well… you were right to laugh. I have never seen an angel. In fact, God has been silent for over four hundred years. But if Mary says she’s been visited by a heavenly being, I would trust the girl. There is no one in Nazareth as virtuous as Mary.”

Joseph sat down and his father sat beside him. He wondered whether to continue. The matter must be settled. At least his father knew enough of Mary to believe her word. He hated to cast doubt on the woman he loved.

Jacob urged his son to continue. “What did the angel reveal?”

Joseph remained silent as his father patiently waited.

Finally Joseph said the words. “Mary says she is to bear the Messiah. Apparently she is with child… but it is not mine. I have not been with her.” He looked at his father. “I don’t know what to do.”

Jacob couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Of all the women in Nazareth Mary was the least likely to give herself to another. Jacob had been thrilled when his son chose her for his bride. Now this?

He paced the floor and stroked his beard. Suddenly he became angry and his words were frightening.

“Joseph! What if she has been assaulted? She lives alone in the poorest part of Nazareth! What if someone hurt her and no one heard her cry for help? She is a beautiful girl and I know that more than one man has had his eye on her. That’s why I kept urging you to act quickly! The poor girl probably left home so she could feel safe until you make her your wife.”

Joseph had wondered the same. But why wouldn’t Mary tell him? Instead she had made up a tale about bearing God’s Son and not fulfilling her role as Joseph’s wife in order to remain “pure.” None of it made sense… unless someone powerful had taken advantage of her and threatened the safety of her loved ones.

“Simon!” Jacob suddenly uttered the name under his breath. “Heli told me the man proposed to Mary before you did yet she turned him away. He must have been so angry! Plus he has the power and resources to get anything he wants without answering to the law!”

Joseph thought on his father’s explanation and it suddenly made more sense to him than anything else he could think of. But there was still the problem of what to do.

Once Jacob calmed down a bit, Joseph spoke.

“But father, I love her. No one has to know that the child is not mine. I could travel to Judea, bring her home, and no one would be the wiser.”

Jacob thought on his son’s words and eventually offered his advice.

“But you will know Joseph. I think that if she continues to repeat the angel story you should give her a bill of divorcement. I know you care for her but you must be sure you can trust her to be truthful… and faithful. God’s law demands it.”

Joseph put his head in his hands as he realized his father’s words were wise.

Chapter Fourteen

Old Zechariah shuffled about the house as if nervously awaiting someone’s arrival. Elizabeth and Mary quietly smiled at the man’s excitement. Eventually he walked outside.

“He hasn’t spoken since he saw the angel in the temple. Apparently God’s messenger struck him silent because of his unbelief. But he writes notes continually. The anticipation of having a son has brought such joy to our home. Our prayers so long ago have finally been answered!”

Mary smiled at the precious old woman who could no longer hide her growing midsection. Together they sewed clothes for the boys they would have. Elizabeth’s time was growing near while Mary was still dealing with morning sickness.

“Our son is to be named John. No one in either of our families has that name, but that is what the angel Gabriel said to call him.”

Mary looked up from her work. “The angel’s name was Gabriel? That is the same angel the Lord sent to the prophet Daniel. I wonder if the angel who came to me was Gabriel.”

Elizabeth smiled. “You my daughter certainly know the Scriptures well. The first day you arrived you greeted me with beautiful words of life from our Lord. No wonder you are to bear the Messiah. He will certainly grow up in a home where the Word of His Father is taught!”

“Thanks to my beloved parents! Oh how often they repeated the glorious truths. I have dreamed of doing the same for my own children. Now sweet Jesus, my firstborn, will get to hear the Words of His Father from my own lips and know they have forever changed my life.”

“So your little one will be named Jesus? How fitting! I’m sure you know it means “God with us.” Did you pick His name yourself?”

Mary shook her head. “The angel revealed it to me. I wonder what Josey is thinking about all this. I guess I’ll know soon enough.” She busied herself with her work and tried to think on the things she knew to be true. Joseph was good and would never do anything to hurt her. But more importantly, the Almighty was good too and had promised to be her shield and protection. Even if her only job was to bring the Savior into the world, that would be enough. What an honor! Happily she could join her Abba and Ima without regrets.

Elizabeth placed her gnarled hand upon that of the precious girl beside her.

“It’s time dear Mary. Send Zechariah for the mid-wife. Or better still, go yourself. By the time he gets there I will have birthed this baby without her.”

Mary laughed, hugged her aunt and rushed from the house. In the courtyard Zechariah paced and prayed. Apparently the old man had sensed the time was near. Mary motioned him inside and hurried away.

Chapter Fifteen

The months without Mary seemed like a lifetime. Joseph still didn’t know what to do. She would be home soon and then what? He dreaded the conversation they must have and rehearsed it often in his head. No matter the outcome, he could not consider shaming her publicly. A private bill of divorcement would be the best option. He tossed on his bed as he thought of her. Their new home was perfect with plenty of hand-crafted furniture fashioned with her in mind. It only made him sadder.

He fell into a fitful sleep while asking the Almighty for direction.

As clear as day, an angel appeared to him with the answer.

“Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife. For the Child within her was conceived by the Holy Spirit. She will have a Son, and you are to name Him Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins.”

He sat straight up and looked around the room. The angel was no longer there. It mattered not as the message was clear. An old familiar passage from the book of Isaiah came to him as he considered the dream.

“Look! The virgin will conceive a Child! She will give birth to a Son, and they will call Him Immanuel, which means ‘God is with us.’”

It had been right in front of him. The virgin the prophet spoke of was his own Mary! This virtuous woman had not been untruthful or promiscuous or any of the other things he had so foolishly considered. Sweet Mary was chosen by the Lord God Almighty! Just as she said, the Baby’s name would be Jesus!

Joseph shook his head as the reality of his role sank in. He was to be the assumed father of God’s own Son. Together they would raise this Boy who would, as the angel said, “Save His people from their sins!”

“Hallelujah!” he shouted then covered his mouth. He’d wake the whole family if he didn’t contain himself. The walls were not that thick!

Quickly he dressed and thought of his next step. He must get to Mary and tell her of the angel’s visit. Suddenly he recalled the day she shared the same news with him. How sad she must have been when he didn’t believe her! Now three months later she probably still wondered where Joseph stood even as the very Son of God grew within her. As he gathered his things he prayed for his beloved Mary. Soon they would be together sharing the wonderful privilege assigned by God.

But first he must tell his father.

Chapter Sixteen

Jacob was less than thrilled when his son woke him. “It can wait til morning! Your mother and I have worried enough over the woman. Go back to bed before you wake the others!”

Joseph would not be quieted. He must leave immediately and wanted his father’s blessing.

“Please father, I must tell you my news! A mighty angel appeared to me in a dream and I’m leaving to fetch Mary right away. Come so we can speak privately!”

Jacob sighed. “Oy! More angels! Enough already!”

His mother rolled over and lit the lantern. “Whatever you have to say can be said with me present. I know about your fiancée and the child she carries. You must put her away Joseph. She is not worthy of your devotion and I certainly don’t want her living amongst us.”

Joseph was deeply wounded. His mother’s words and his father’s sudden outburst surprised him.

“Quiet woman!” Jacob was angry that his wife spoke so callously. She would not be aware of the situation at all except that she had purposely eavesdropped. Then she had freely spoken the gossip to the other women of the house and nagged Jacob continually to push Joseph regarding the divorce.

Joseph tried again to defend Mary.

“Father, mother, please… I beg of you. God sent an angel tonight to direct me. I am to take Mary as my wife. She is the virgin spoken of by Isaiah who will bring the Messiah into the world. I have been chosen to protect them. And I need your blessing.”

Jacob could tell his son would not be deterred so he rose from his bed. “Take whatever you need. Here. I have a little money tucked away. Use it wisely. But be very careful son. Wait until daybreak and find traveling companions. The road between here and Judea is filled with robbers. May the Lord be with you.”

He hugged his son as he whispered.

“I am sorry that your mother will never believe the story you and Mary have… agreed upon. The wedding cannot be here. You would be wise to have Mary’s uncle do the ceremony. Perhaps stay with them a while. Maybe that will answer some of the questions that will come later when it is apparent that the girl carries a child before marriage.”

Joseph was crushed. His father’s words revealed his doubt in Joseph’s character. His mother’s mournful sobs followed him as he left the family home without their blessing.

Chapter Seventeen

Elizabeth’s strength was nearly gone. Mary held her hand and stroked her wrinkled brow. “You can do it Auntie! Stay strong! The mid-wife sees the head. One more big push and that son of yours will be making his presence known! Come on now… PUSH!!!”

Elizabeth bore down and pushed with all the energy she had left. She would deliver the boy or she would die trying!

Her scream fell on deaf ears but old Zechariah could tell by the looks on the faces of the crowd that had gathered. His wife was nearing the end. He fell to his knees and begged the Lord for mercy. This life-long companion had been his rock, his love, his thorn in the flesh, his best friend since they were wed so long ago. Together they had mourned the years without children. Then later they watched again as couples around them filled their homes with grandchildren. Often they had prayed that God would lift the curse that seemed to cover their home though they faithfully served Him year after year. Then finally they found themselves content with just each other. If he lost her now…

Silently the old man begged God for her life.

“Please dear God of mercies, let her live to enjoy the little one You so graciously have given us. He will be strong, a man of power and strength like Elijah as he prepares the way for the Messiah. Your angel told me that much. But Elizabeth! She is so frail. Please God… I beg of You… spare her life for me. I fear that I cannot go on without her.”

A hand on his shoulder caused him to look up. Mary stood by his side weeping.

Yet she smiled.

She beckoned the old man into the room where his wife lay motionless. On her belly rested a healthy baby boy. But Elizabeth didn’t move.

Zechariah knelt beside the wife of his youth and stroked her cheek. She opened her eyes and smiled. Her hand trembled as she reached for her husband.

“We did it old man!” Tears of joy mixed with exhaustion streamed down her face. To Zechariah, she had never looked more beautiful. She cried as she whispered,

“Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me, praise His sweet holy Name!”

Zechariah kissed her hand and silently praised God for sparing her life. Carefully he lifted his son and rested his tiny head on his shoulder. The old man wanted to shout the praise and joy that welled up within him but his voice would not come. Instead he cried tears of thanksgiving over the baby he held in his arms.

Mary too was exhausted. She walked outside and down the hill to her favorite grove of trees. Olive blossoms floated on the warm gentle wind. Alone there she knelt and cried out to God. She missed Joseph and wondered if he still cared. Reclining in the soft grass she felt herself drifting.

Peace washed over her soul as she realized. If God could perform such a miracle in Zechariah and Elizabeth’s life, He would surely see Mary through the days ahead… with or without Joseph.

For as the angel had said, “Nothing is impossible with God!”

Chapter Eighteen

Joseph milled about town hoping to find other travelers so as not to go alone. His patience was spent. He was about to strike out on his own when a band of men approached. By the looks of things they were sojourners too. After a few inquiries which revealed they were on their way to Jerusalem to visit the temple he decided they’d make good traveling companions.

Each evening they set up camp before dark and shared food. He was glad for the bread his mother had baked ahead of time. Perhaps he would be able to appease her at some point once he and Mary got settled into married life. He knew most of his mother’s anxiety was about how things would appear to their friends and neighbors. Joseph wondered if eventually the Son of God would be able to win his mother over. He smiled at the thought. The woman had always been a pushover for little boys.

After days of traveling the group arrived in Jerusalem. Though Joseph had been there many times he was still in awe of the temple. But his heart was with Mary in the Judean hillside. Though his companions urged him to stay, he was determined to finish his journey. Just as they were parting ways he spotted a group of folks headed toward the temple. Had his eyes deceived him?

It was her!

He broke into a run toward the group then stopped before he made a fool of himself on a public street. Her smile was his reward as she too nearly hugged him for joy.

“Josey! You’re here! What brings you to Jerusalem?”

He bowed but never took his eyes off her. “Why you dear Mary! I was hoping to see you!”

Though she laughed, tears sprang to her eyes. Joseph had not abandoned her.

“Come! We are going to the temple for the circumcision of Zechariah and Elizabeth’s baby boy. Just look at their handsome son!”

Old Zechariah beamed as Elizabeth presented the child.

“Wow! He’s quite an armload! Look at all that hair! Next year at this time he’ll have a beard like his papa!”

The group laughed at Joseph’s words then made their way inside. Mary gazed at her fiancé and thought about what a wonderful father he would make. No wonder God had chosen him to be her husband!

Chapter Nineteen

As the group of neighbors and friends entered the temple Mary lingered to talk with Joseph. “I’m so thankful the Lord allowed you to witness this wonderful day! The angel Gabriel appeared to Zechariah to let him know that he would have a son. This little boy will grow up to be like Elijah and prepare the way for the Messiah! Uncle Zechariah has been unable to speak since the angel appeared. But look at him! He is so happy! And Aunt Elizabeth is more alive than ever. As the angel said to me, “Nothing is impossible with God!”

Joseph smiled and whispered. “The Lord sent an angel to me too. He said we are to name His Son Jesus, just like you said!” Joseph bent low to speak so only Mary could hear. “I’m sorry I didn’t receive your news at first. God knows I am a stubborn and stiff-necked man. How could I not believe you dear woman? Can you forgive me?”

Mary’s heart beat fast at the nearness of Joseph as he whispered. Softly she replied.

“Yes my love. I have been praying for you night and day!”

Voices came from the crowd near Zechariah and Elizabeth. There seemed to be a dispute about something. Mary hoped her relatives would not allow anything to spoil their beautiful day.

“But there’s no one in all of your family named John. He should be called Zechariah after his father!” Elizabeth gave the order in no uncertain terms. “His name is JOHN!”

Certain ones in the crowd gestured to Zechariah regarding the child’s name. They couldn’t believe these faithful servants of God would break tradition and name the child such a common name. Obviously the boy was born to greatness. Zechariah motioned for a writing tablet and to everyone’s surprise [except Elizabeth’s] he wrote, “His name is John.” Instantly Zechariah could speak and he began praising God. Filled with the Holy Spirit he prophesied in a strong voice.

“Praise the Lord, the God of Israel because He has visited and redeemed His people.

He has sent us a mighty Savior from the royal line of his servant David, just as he promised through His holy prophets long ago.

Now we will be saved from our enemies and from all who hate us.

He has been merciful to our ancestors by remembering His sacred covenant-

The covenant He swore with an oath to our ancestor Abraham.

We have been rescued from our enemies so we can serve God without fear, in holiness and righteousness for as long as we live.

And you, my little son, will be called the prophet of the Most High, because you will prepare the way for the Lord.

You will tell His people how to find salvation through forgiveness of their sins.

Because of God’s tender mercy, the morning light from heaven is about to break upon us, to give light to those who sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, and to guide us to the path of peace.”

Awe fell upon the whole crowd and the news of what had happened spread throughout the Judean hills. Everyone who heard about it reflected on the events and asked, “What will this child turn out to be?” For the hand of the Lord was surely upon him in a special way.

As Mary pondered all these things she wondered if her day could get any happier. To her great surprise, it did.

Chapter Twenty

As the community of friends made their way back to Emmaus they seemed to speak softly to one another as if sharing a secret. Mary hardly noticed. She was just happy to have Joseph near. After a journey of several hours, Zechariah suggested they stop for rest under a nice tree. The other families hurried on as their children were still full of energy. Mary was certainly glad for the rest and wondered at the strength of her elderly relatives. She hoped since Joseph had arrived unexpectedly she wouldn’t have to make her way back to Nazareth too soon. She still struggled with morning sickness, but more than that she hoped to help her aunt with the baby. Perhaps she could even learn things that would be helpful in days to come. As she silently pondered all of that, she noticed Joseph gazing at her. When he caught her eye he smiled mischievously.

Since it was only Zechariah’s family there, Joseph felt he could freely speak. In fact he was more comfortable with them than he was his own family, especially since his mother had revealed her disdain for Mary.

He decided to ask again what he had asked the old man privately. In fact he made sure Mary heard this time.

“Father Zechariah, Mary and I have been betrothed for nearly a year and a half. If her groom were to come for her, say… tomorrow evening, would you be willing to perform the marriage ceremony?”

Mary caught her breath and covered her mouth with her hand. Tears sprang to her eyes as her Uncle Zechariah answered.

“It would be my most holy honor dear son! Elizabeth and I have been a part of many weddings. But none as important and special as this! Plus we just happen to have an upper room where Mary stays now that can serve as the bridal suite. You may stay as long as you’d like. Once again God has provided ahead of time what we didn’t even know we needed!”

Elizabeth hugged Mary then pointed at Joseph with a crooked finger. “But for tonight, you will sleep in the courtyard!”

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Elizabeth brought the garment from a sturdy cedar box and held it out to Mary. “This wedding gown is about a hundred years old, but it’s yours if you want! I dreamed of passing it on to my daughter but it was not to be. Who knew our great God had a more wonderful plan. Now I can pass it on to you, the mother of the Son of God! Oh what a blessing my dear girl!”

Mary was overjoyed at the provision. Her own wedding garments were in Nazareth as she never dreamed Joseph would fetch her from her Uncle’s home. At last her days of bereavement were over. She could adorn herself in the beautiful wedding clothes for Joseph as they promised their faithfulness to one another.

The days that followed were filled with both sadness and wonder. Together they returned to Nazareth. But instead of taking his bride to the home he had so lovingly prepared, they chose to live in Heli’s old home. Gossip surrounded the couple especially since Joseph’s parents did not host a marriage celebration. Mary hid her condition as long as she could, but a short six months later it was very evident. Though it was nearly time for her to deliver, Joseph felt it best to take her with him to the home of their ancestors. The government census could not be ignored. But surely some of the many relatives that lived in Bethlehem would welcome them there.

Chapter Twenty One

Again they were disappointed. More family turned them away. To the local hostel they went, hoping beyond hope for a place to rest. The journey had been hard. Though Mary tried not to show it, she was in the beginning stages of labor. Deep breaths were no longer helping to relieve the pain. Four days of walking the rough countryside to Bethlehem were definitely taking their toll.

The concern on Joseph’s face was evident. Even the innkeeper turned them away. But a small cave-like stable out back would give them a place to rest.

Mary watched as her husband pitched new hay then spread a blanket. Before she could make her way to the makeshift bed her water burst forth in a gush.

“Oh… Josey!” She held her back in pain as reality hit. There was no time to fetch a mid-wife. The man she had not been intimate with would soon deliver her son.

Quickly Joseph helped her lie down. Gently he spoke as he smoothed her brow. “I know how private you are dear woman. But this is going to happen. I can’t risk leaving you to find help. But the Lord God Almighty is with us. HE will bring forth His Son!”

Mary let out an anguished cry and knew her husband spoke the truth. A few hours later, the bloody form of a healthy baby boy emerged. Quickly Joseph cleaned the child as best he could then passed him to his mother. Her arms trembled with exhaustion as she cuddled her infant son. Joseph washed then settled in beside her. Together they held each other and cried.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t provide a better place for you dear Mary.” Joseph reached for the boy as he apologized. “I was sure one of father’s uncles would show hospitality.”

Mary looked at her kind husband and silently thanked the Lord for him. “You did all you could my beloved. Now check the bag. I brought clothes for the baby.”

Joseph reached with his empty hand into the travel bag and pulled out swaddling. Mary spread the cloth on her lap then wrapped the newborn tightly.

“Elizabeth showed me how.” She smiled as she bundled her son. “That feeding trough will make a nice cradle for tonight. At least he can’t fall out of that.”

Joseph rose, emptied the manger, then added fresh straw.

Gazing at his wife holding her newborn, he whispered. “He’s got your curls.” Joseph shook his head in wonder. “Jesus! Sweet Son of God.”  He smiled.

Mary laughed. “Yes Jehovah saves! And with Him, nothing is impossible!”

Finale

A young man sat on the hillside of his family land. Once again, he was working third shift with a few others. Nothing had stirred the flock for months now, yet here he was, watching sheep. He wondered to himself if his father’s words were true.

Gazing into the night sky, the verses played over in his head. His dad loved to quote Scripture.

“The faithful love of the LORD never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is His faithfulness; His mercies begin afresh each morning. I say to myself, ‘The LORD is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in Him!’ The LORD is good to those who depend on Him, to those who search for Him. So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the LORD. And it is good for people to submit at an early age to the yoke of His discipline.”

He laughed a little. His dad always threw that last part in for good measure. Sure he was young, but it seemed like it was taking forever for him to really DO anything. Not only was he supposed to wait, but wait quietly, while he submitted to discipline. His dad liked to remind him often of the importance of being faithful in simple things. But shepherding is not all that noble. Would he ever be allowed to do anything really important?

Without warning, the darkness gave way to incredible radiant light. His heart felt as though it would melt in his chest. Never had he faced such fear. A voice came from the light, assuring him that all was well.

“I bring you good news of great joy to all people. The Savior- yes, the Messiah, the Lord- has been born today in Bethlehem, the city of David! And you will recognize Him by this sign: You will find the baby wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.”

Before he could question the wisdom of putting a baby in a feeding trough, the mighty angel that had spoken the words was surrounded! The skies were filled with a powerful army arrayed in light. Strength poured forth and thunderous voices shouted in unison,

 “Glory to God! Glory to God in the Highest! Peace and good will toward men!!!”

He fell to his knees and realized he was worshipping with the heavenly host, very glad that the message was one of peace! Suddenly the visitors were gone. The night was dark once again. He rose on weak legs and moved toward his companions.

“Bethlehem is just across the way. Let’s go!”

Normally he would worry about the flock. But his gut told him his father would be glad he left the sheep to see the child the angels spoke of.

“He’s here!” shouted his friend.

He rounded the stalls and there, just as the angel had said, was a tiny baby. With the wrinkled face of a newborn, He stirred and gave a little cry. A tired mother rose to check on him. She lifted Him from the straw and said, “His Name is Jesus.”

The young shepherd tentatively reached for the child as his mother smiled. A prayer of praise rose from the depths of his soul.

“Why dear God, would You choose a simple shepherd like me? Thank You Father, for putting me with the flock tonight! Salvation has come, and I hold Him in my arms! OH! Just wait til I tell my Abba!”

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Purpose:

“But these are written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing in Him you will have life by the power of His Name!” –John 20:31

I hope you enjoyed this fictional account of the birth of Christ. It’s only fictional in the minor details which help to put flesh and bones on a story. And sometimes it’s easier to share a story with a friend or relative than to open Scripture in the midst of a family gathering. So send it to whoever God puts on your heart. May the Lord bless the sharing of this story for His glory!

Resources:

Matthew chapter one and two

Luke chapter one and two

Psalm 23; 90; 91; 103

Lamentations 3:23

Jewish Betrothals and Weddings Weddings, Oasis Trade Links

Jewish Marriage Customs: Jewish marriage customs

The Jewish Wedding Analogy: Commentaries on Jewish Weddings

The Ancient Jewish Wedding: a Missing link in Christianity: Creation science-Jewish wedding-missing-link-christianity

The Cure

My friend Ann called with an idea. She knows how much I hurt. Apparently she is trying cherry yogurt and it is really helping with her aches and pains. I thought on it while she extolled the virtues. While she explained I went over the list of no-no’s. Through the years, like fifty plus, I’ve tried all the cures. Apple cider vinegar and honey made into a tasty drink three times a day. That one has come and gone throughout the years. In fact, one of our daughters, who’s identity shall not be revealed,  came out rather hairy. I couldn’t help but wonder…

I’ve tried extreme doses of pycnogenol, the extract of grape seeds. No deal. Long before gluten free became a thing, we tried that. Of course sugar was eliminated long enough to make me grumpy, but still in pain. We removed night-shades from our diet. That includes tomatoes, peppers, white potatoes, and eggplant. Okay, so the eggplant removal didn’t cause a lot of anguish. But tomatoes? I love lasagne, spaghetti, and meatloaf… with a side of mashed potatoes. So David, the cook in the house, bless his heart, tried to substitute beets for tomatoes. He made a thick hearty sauce with lots and lots of herbs out of canned beets. Not pickled. That would just be weird. It was pretty good… except our noodles turned pink. Instead of potatoes, he boiled radishes and tried to make them similar to new potatoes. With lots and lots of butter. And guess what. They tasted just like warm radishes. But we kept at it for months. I declare the man has tried everything. And I just keep on hurting. Heavy sigh.

You’re probably right. It’s obviously all the sin in my life. And a great deficiency of faith. Don’t laugh. It’s been suggested… and considered many, many times. Insert whiny voice here. So when my bestie suggested cherry yogurt, my ears perked up. This I could do. I’d have to make sure it doesn’t contain red dye, or artificial sweetener of any kind, and hope it included yogurt made from the milk of happy cows. Will I eat it or slather it on my body?

Then the word Y caught my ear. As-in YMCA. Apparently the woman is trying chair yoga. Dang.

All this time I thought we’d landed on the cure. Not something involving stretching… in a chair, like exercise. The closest thing to that I can get is when I do a fast waddle on the way to the bathroom. Of course that happens often enough to count as a workout. Not to mention the lowering of the posterior onto the… chair. AND unlike chair yoga, this is a 24/7 activity so there’s that. And all this time I thought the cure was out of my reach! Now I know that I just need to keep doing what I’m doing.

And maybe get my hearing checked.

Sawdust Heart

Have you noticed the current trend in menswear? Grown men in tapered pants. And tennis shoes. Kinda gives off a Micky Mouse vibe. When we were in high school the guys wore bell bottoms. Who would purposely wear pants that wouldn’t move unless you took a few steps to let the material catch up? So I guess every generation has its crazy. But men in skinny britches? Even sportscasters in expensive suits have fallen prey. As long as they’re sitting behind a desk, all is well. But let them stand to converse or point out a play on the big screen… just no. And now the problem is compounded by the addition of tennis shoes. With a suit. So wrong. I already had issues with them wearing light brown dress shoes with dark suits. But tennis shoes? In white? Not good.
One guy shook things up. As a guest commentator on Fantasy Football, he appeared wearing a rock band t-shirt layered with a loose unbuttoned over-blouse situation. His jeans were tattered and his arms were heavily tatooed. I have no idea what was on his feet as I never got that far. His long hair was pulled back in an updo and his scraggly beard would’ve made the men on Duck Dynasty proud.
“Look honey. He wore his church clothes,” I commented. Together David and I haw-hawed like the two old guys on the Muppets in the balcony.
Maybe it’s a good thing. Perhaps it’s best that nobody cares about that stuff anymore. Truthfully I am the last person on earth who should throw stones. Thank the Lord you can’t see me right now. Besides, that verse in 1st Samuel 16:7 is still there. “Man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.” Probably when He looks for mine, all He can find is sawdust. I can see Him now slowly shaking His head. “Nothing here but an old Muppet in a housedress. Bless her heart.” Then comes the grace. “But at least she found something to laugh about. Those pegged leg suit pants with tennis shoes really ARE funny.”
Thank God when He looks at me He has a sense of humor too.
Obviously.

Who’s Your Mama

I’ve never been one to decorate for Christmas early. In fact, for many years Christmas reminded me of the year my mom died during that holiday. Our family barely functioned as we went through the season like zombies. However just lately, I thought about getting a new tree while there’s still plenty of time. Then someone posted on Facebook that anyone thinking about Christmas this early should just stop that crazy because “Joseph don’t even know Mary’s pregnant yet.”
Made me laugh.
Then my thoughts went to Mary. Bless her sweet heart. Apparently she was highly favored and yet even she asked, “How can this be?” I love that Scripture includes that.
Another favorite woman of mine in the Bible is Rahab. Bless her not so innocent heart. Her name is always tagged with “the harlot.” As if somebody missed that about her. Shesh. Not that I would presume to correct Scripture, but holy cow. Could we not at least include, “the woman formerly known as…”? Again, bless her heart. I guess it wouldn’t matter. She’ll always be THAT woman…
Except that the Lord fixed it.
Have you heard the story of Ruth and Naomi? It’s about a faithful gentile widow Ruth, who was so devoted to her husband’s Jewish mother, Naomi, that she followed her into a foreign land so that she could take care of her. Naomi herself admitted to being less than easy to live with. She called herself “bitter.” Soooo… not a peach. Anyway, God provided for Ruth and her bitter old mother-in-law by sending a faithful man to marry Ruth. Here’s where it gets fun.
Guess who Ruth’s new mother-in-law was? Yep. Good ol’ worldly, pagan, been around the block Rahab. Oy vey. I bet that made for some interesting Sunday lunches.
Personally I find myself between faithful, godly, innocent Mary the mother of Jesus and Rahab been-around-the-block-harlot. Not near as good as Mary, but not all that bad either. Therefore I think it’s wise to remember. If God can use the best of the best, and the worst of the worst, can He not use me, Lynna the Whinybutt? Even in my weakness He sees me as the one He created to serve a purpose. For His glory I was made for good things. How amazing is His grace. I would love to sit with Mary and hear the story of how things worked out in her life. But I really think Rahab had some stories to tell! Maybe that’s why she’s listed as “the harlot.” Perhaps God wanted to let us identify with a less than model citizen.
As for us regular Joes and Janes, “We are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things He planned for us long ago.” -Ephesians 2:10
Sidenote: For more about how Rahab saved her family, read Joshua chapter 2. To see her place in the lineage of the Messiah, see Matthew 1:5.
Now let’s go order a Christmas tree before it is eternally too late.

A Brave New Day

We love watching the Atlanta Braves. During their alumni week we got to visit with some old friends. Even though we were only catching up with our baseball heroes by way of television, it was fun to hear how they were doing. Some participated in a homerun derby, some had their kids or grandkids with them, and some joined the broadcast booth for a few innings. One of our all time favorite players Dale Murphy was there and it was fun to hear him interact with the regular announcers. Such a great personality. The man has always been so athletic and is part of the Braves Hall of Fame.* Watching his outstanding fielding in the early seventies is when I became a baseball fan. Those were lean years for the Braves. When we finally acquired some decent pitching it was way more fun. Notice my humble usage of “we.” That’s because I am right there with them in my mind. While Murph was in the booth, the producers showed an embarrassing video of him trying to take a selfie with a group of former players. In order to get a better shot he stood on a chair. When he lost his balance and nearly fell backwards, the group of guys behind him ran up to catch him. “That could’ve been bad,” they teased. He laughed as he commented, “Who would’ve ever thought I couldn’t stand on a chair?” Seeing Murph nearly fall helped me relate since we are about the same age. I don’t dare even stand on a stool to fetch a mixing bowl anymore. It’s down right dangerous to be tottering twelve extra inches above the ground. As the series continued former pitcher Tom Glavine commented that a certain injured player is considered “day to day.” He followed that up by saying, “But aren’t we all.” Once again I can relate. What used to be easy to navigate gets harder with age. At sixty- eight, it’s a bit scary out there. Actually I think it’s scary for everyone. We’re all just a bit “day to day.” Perhaps if we use a drop of common sense and pray for wisdom, the Lord will guide us every step of the way. So far it’s working in this brave new world.

*MLB has not yet recognized Murphy’s worth for their Hall of Fame. And I’m not bitter about that at all.]

The Eyebrow Situation

One of our favorite TV personalities made a remark that caused us to laugh. As the show continued David tipped his head and asked. “What’s goin’ on with her eyebrows?” I looked at him and wondered when he started noticing such things. Turning back to the pretty lady I realized he was right. Her brows were perfectly matched and a bit wider than normal. “Why would she do that?” he asked again. It was almost as if they’d been carefully colored in. The fact that I engaged in this conversation gives you a glimpse into our exciting life.
“Well… when I lost my hair during chemo, I was told there was a stencil I could get to draw in perfect eyebrows. Maybe she got hold of something like that. Although I could never quite get mine to look right. I always came off looking angry. Or shocked.”
He pushed his hair back and raised his eyebrows looking surprised. “Like this?” he asked.
“Yep. Just like that only not as bushy.” I smiled at the man. “I guess I should have splurged on the stencil. I kept thinking I could do it myself. But at the time, eyebrows were the least of my problems. It’s funny how they never grew back.” He leaned forward between our matching* recliners and looked at me closer.
“Hmm. They’re there. They are just very light. I guess you could draw them on. Just remember, ‘Less is more.’ You don’t want to look like the TV lady. That’s just weird.” A small part of me was pleased that he liked what he saw when he looked at me and didn’t want me resembling a celebrity. At least that’s what I heard.
I pulled up a phone picture our youngest daughter had taken of us the day before. As I held it up for him to see, again he considered the eyebrow situation. “Maybe our eldest daughter could draw some on the picture. She’s techno-savvy.”
I looked at the photo we hoped to use later for a family thing. “Yep. She could do that. Back when she was in high school she had big eyebrows, like Brooke Shields. So pretty. If anyone has a good appreciation of eyebrows it would be Stephanie.”
He nodded and I wondered if we should be watching the Braves game instead. Surely none of those guys have stenciled eyebrows. If so they’d be melted off in the Georgia heat. A bit later I dug through my make-up for an eyebrow pencil. As I looked in the mirror I envisioned looking like Sela Ward or that gal that plays in Ant Man. Remembering David’s words I tried to use a light hand. Suddenly I recognized the image in the mirror. It was Mr. Potato Head… using his angry eyes. Sela Ward was nowhere. But I did look expressive. So there was that.
A hot washcloth and a few scrubs later I came to a conclusion. Maybe I’ll be just fine without eyebrows. No more surprised looks or angry eyes. This way I can do what comes natural. Maybe keep people guessing with my blank look. I plan to hold onto my eyebrow pencil though. Considering our life, my confused look will surely come in handy in the future.
*Disclaimer: The mentioning of matching recliners is not intended to sound highfalutin. They DO match because his is brown and mine is orange and blue and brown paisley. However, they were not bought as a set. We are not that sophisticated.
Obviously.

Back in the Day

My daddy turns ninety this year. To say he’s been through some things is quite the understatement. I love it when he talks about growing up. Today when we visited by phone he mentioned that he had loved playing football in school. This was news to me and I could not imagine. As an adult he’s always been a short wiry fellow; strong as an ox and as smart as anyone I’ve ever met. But football? I guess he heard my doubts as he went on to explain. “I’m small now and was probably shorter then, but I could run. Everybody said I was fast. Of course all us Pittman boys were fast.” I laughed and said, “You were probably trying to stay two steps ahead of grandpaw.” He paused at the thought and added. ” Yep, some other people too.” I wondered what he meant. I know he and some of his brothers had been caught swimming in the old Cannon Mills cement pond at night on several occasions. I think they received a free escort home by the cops at some point. Since both his parents worked in the cotton mill, that probably ended those late night shenanigans. But who knows? I do know daddy has always loved to swim. However he did not get to play football because it fell to him to milk the family cow. With a family having twelve kids it was a necessity. Apparently the milking could not wait til after football practice. Daddy went on to say that growing up back then was not the same as how kids grow up today. I smiled at another giant understatement.
That lead me to mention the power outage and how hot it was in our house. “I guess I’m just spoiled. I can’t imaging how folks used to live without air conditioning.” He paused to think for a minute. “Yep, I slept with my head on the windowsill many a night, just begging for a breeze. And flies were awful. Nowadays if we get a fly in the house it’s unusual. Back in the day they were everywhere. Did you ever see those yellow strips of flypaper? Everybody had those hangin’ in the doorways. Flies were so much worse back then. They came in swarms. Of course everybody had an outhouse in their backyard.” I shuddered at the thought. “And a cow,” I added.
“Yep… that didn’t help much either.” He paused and thought for a while. I waited and hoped he’d tell me more. But I was careful not to ask because if daddy thinks you’re trying to get him to talk about the past he shuts down. Inside I knew this was a rare visit. I know the man won’t live forever. Eventually he began talking again. I listened as he recalled a time when he was around eight years old. As he walked down the dirt road past houses in his neighborhood, he kept hearing mournful crying. He had no idea what all the sadness was about. Later he found out Pearl Harbor had been bombed. My soul grieved at the thought of his little boy heart. How terribly sad to live through such a horrible time. I also knew he would grow up to join the Navy during the Korean war. In the past when we’ve asked about those years in uniform he’d just shrug and say, “Aw, I didn’t really do anything. Sailed around the world a couple times. Swam in a lot of places I weren’t supposed to. Married your mama one Labor Day weekend. The brass revoked my shore leave at the last minute and I had to go AWOL to meet up with her. Spent two weeks with your mama. Did hard time for ninety days once I got back. But it was worth it.”
I can’t imagine ninety days of hard labor in the confines of an aircraft carrier. I knew from stories past that his sentence started in September of 1953 while his ship was docked in Jacksonville, Florida. The first time he had shore leave was in January the next year. By then they were in the Philippines.
Ninety years. He and mama raised three daughters. Mama passed away at only 72; a very young 72. We miss her still. But daddy! Still here and sharp enough to talk about “back in the day.” When I start to worry about our current times it helps to recall just a few of the things my daddy lived through. In fact I feel spoiled completely rotten. Praise God my life does not include an outhouse or yellow fly paper.

Code Talker

Do you send greeting cards? I do. I guess because I love to get them. I remember mama saying one time that she and daddy nearly got kicked out of the Hallmark store that used to be near Marshalls. They tucked themselves over in the Maxine section and read funny stuff until they were laughing outloud. We could always count on them to find the best humor available. Like a lovely card with a photo of clouds and sunshine on the front. The sentiment said, “I wish you were Jesus.” Knowing my parents I couldn’t imagine such a sappy greeting on my birthday. The inside cleared it up by adding, “Then today would be Christmas.” Yep. Just my speed. David’s mother Nina on the other hand, always bought the sappy stuff and personally underlined the important parts. Which was everything. And even though she lived across the road from us, she would put a stamp on the envelope and send it with her outgoing mail. On my birthday one year she tucked a twenty inside with a note in her distinctive left handed script. “Go get that paint you like so you can freshen up the looks of that end table you’ve been wanting to refinish.” She knew me well and tried to think of unique gifts to make me feel loved. I used that twenty to buy a gallon of Robin’s Egg Blue paint at Lowe’s. Paint costs about twice that much now; so that tells you how long ago it’s been. Now every other piece of furniture in the house is Robin’s Egg Blue. But that’s okay. Designers have been advising for years to pick an inspiration piece and run with it. I’ve decided that’s what happened. But don’t worry. I still have a dab left in case something comes up.
So anyway, I still send greeting cards. While the savvy amongst us send texts or messages online, I’m still using paper and ink. The last time I sent a card to a granddaughter I wondered. Can she read this? It IS in cursive. Will she even get it? Since she lives in an apartment in a large city, does she even check the mail? Good thing I planned ahead. It took about four grocery trips for my beloved to remember to get stamps at the Food Lion. I was kinda proud when I remembered to tell him to pick some up. He felt rather accomplished when he remembered to do so. As I pondered my granddaughter’s circumstances or status as the youngsters say, I felt like a Navaho code talker. Actual ink on paper written in cursive and mailed to an address by way of a stamp seems a little antiquated. At least I knew enough not to put money in there. Because who in their right mind would want to buy a can of paint and color everything in the house Robin’s Egg Blue? Hopefully the espresso mugs she picked out on Amazon will land on her doorstep and make her smile. The only problem is that they will be there a week early. I’m so used to regular mail that I forgot to allow for the efficiency of Amazon. And we wonder why Amazon is taking over the world.
Oh well. At least the greeting inside the box will not be in cursive. I think she will love it.

Back to Normal

If you live in certain parts of Rowan County, NC you may have recently experienced a power outage. We sure did. It might’ve been two of the longest days of my life. Well, except for that time my husband was coaching the girls’ softball team at the school where we worked. We made it to the championship tournament (yay) but had to travel to Rocky Mount. Though it is only 241 miles from here by car, we were of course in a school activity bus; which turned the three hour tour into a journey of epic porportions. Lord have mercy. Then we were privileged to play multiple back to back games in the sauna that is Eastern North Carolina. Have you ever been there? Situated in the Netherworld between our beautiful Piedmont and the pristine Coastline, this lovely area so closely resembles a swamp that we had to be careful when parking lest the bus sink up to the axles; that wondrous land where mosquitos are the size of hummingbirds. I thought the gravity was less intense but it turned out the aforementioned mosquitos were trying to carry me off. Though we cheered almost obnoxiously for our team to win (too much cowbell), I silently prayed for the joy to end. Please forgive me dear loyal parents and fans. I thought I might die and wished I’d hurry up.
Annyyywayyy…
Our recent power outage brought up memories of a similar time when there was just no escaping the heat. It did help us realize things that are good to have in an emergency. Like battery powered chargers for our electronic gadgets. My tablet died so I ended up reading an actual paper book. It was hard to turn the pages though as I kept swiping along the bottom and nothing happened. We dug out an oil lantern and used it for a while til the wick gave out. Thankfully we had a decent flashlight. David’s grill worked well and also relegated the heat of cooking to the great outdoors. He did not however appreciate the church fan I handed him when he expressed how hot it was in the house. Together we decided that a power outage in the heat of summer is much worse than one in the winter. One can always add more clothes or another blanket if it gets too cold. But in the heat with all the windows open we dared not strip any further lest the neighbors call the cops. Nobody wants to see all that.
Eventually the power came back on about 2:30am one morning. Since it had gone off during a dark storm a day or ten earlier, all the lights were on. It was a happy awakening. We shut out the lights, closed the windows (and curtains) and did the dance of joy. The next morning we ran the washer, dryer, and dishwasher. We charged up all the phones and tablets; then downloaded a cache of books so I wouldn’t have to manually turn pages. Currently we are settled into our normal lifestyle of cool.
Back in those happy days of 1999, our girls won the tournament; the bus made it home, and we all lived to tell about it. I may or may not have kissed the ground. Apparently good stories do not come cheap.

Just Happy

My sister’s name popped up on my new smart phone. Actually it’s a stupid phone but you won’t hear me complain. Or recite the many ways it aggravates me. No, I am not going to mention how the things that used to be easy on my old dumb phone are nearly impossible on my new smart phone. Like adding my friend Edith to my contacts. Poor gal. Now she has to be Edirh because I can’t figure out how to edit her name. Annyyywayyy… my sister called. “Happy Anniversary!” she joyfully proclaimed. “Thanks,” I answered. “But it’s tomorrow.”
“Oh… well happy 50th anniversary tomorrow! It’s a big one!” she exclaimed.
“Actually it’s number 49, but thank you,” I answered.
“Oh… well at least I was the first to congratulate you! Hope y’all have a wonderful day… tomorrow.” “Thanks sweet sistuh,” I replied. I didn’t have the heart to tell her one of our daughters had just stopped by with eggs from her prolific chickens and had already congratulated us. Not sure how people remember these things. I’m not even checking Facebook anymore. But somehow they know that felicitations are in order. Surely they don’t still use a paper calendar like I do. In fact I consider it a fun event to transfer all the important dates to my new paper calendar every January. Yep. I’m still that person.
What’s even better is that my hubba remembered our anniversary and gave me the best gift. He painted our bedroom. Sappy sentimental man. The gift is very special to me because I know how difficult it is for him to get down on his knees to trim around the baseboard. He assured me it wasn’t hard at all. “It’s the getting back up that’s hard,” he smiled that sexy smile and my heart melted. Yep. He’s still got it.
On our actual anniversary we REALLY got hot and bothered. He took me to Rufty’s Garden Shop to pick out flowers for around the mailbox. During the last year or so, I’ve been unable to go anywhere because of chronic pain. Well, except for the doctor’s office. But David suggested that a quick trip from our house over to Innes Street probably wouldn’t overtax me too much; especially if I didn’t wear myself out getting ready. So I threw a summer scarf around my lovely housedress. David pulled into the crowded lot and I was happy to spot the perfect heat tolerant plants. He scurried inside to make our purchase while I waited in the car. After he received a hug from the wife of his youth, he turned the key in the ignition. Nothing. Thus the hot and bothered.
Sweat ran down the back of my lovely housedress. Mama warned us girls to never go out in public without getting “done up.” She always added, “That’s when you’ll run into your old boyfriend for sure!” Well praise God I married my old boyfriend and the last thing on his mind at that point was my attire.
The kind folks at Rufty’s took time in their very busy Friday to help. As they, along with David worked in the heat to jumpstart the battery, I contemplated removing my scarf. But I didn’t because, you know… housedress. Instead I prayed that the Lord would intervene on our behalf so I wouldn’t have to hitch a ride in all my loveliness. At least I had on my good… flip flops. God heard the prayers of a desperate poorly dressed woman. Eventually we were back on the road for the short trip home to the magical land of Clarkville. It’s a wonderful place, hot at times, but always full of adventure. Laced with sweet surprises like fresh eggs. Plus kind people, and blessings heaped upon blessings. Happy half century to us!
Well… you know… 49.

Jesus Goggles

The year was 1978. We had no insurance, and no money for frivolities like prenatal care. When I finally broke down and went for a doctor visit, I was advised to terminate our second pregnancy. It seemed the baby was not developing at the normal rate. Plus I had experienced a few complications. To say I was afraid would be quite an understatement. I was 23, in a lot of pain and very intimidated by the growly doctor. Circumstances led me to the hospital where I would have an ultrasound. This was a fairly new procedure and I had no idea what to expect. I was instructed to drink a foot tub of water ahead of time so they could get the best pictures. Apparently a floating baby is easier to see. In fact, I too was floating. And miserable. I think I was about ten months along and since I have a bladder the size of a butterbean, I was pretty sure the waiting room would soon need a clean up on aisle three. My sister was with me and though she was even younger than me, she knew enough to whisper funny things. I can’t remember exactly what was so comical about the man across the way who seemed also to be ten months along. I just remember laughing at my sister and being thankful for her effort to keep my mind off the fact that something was wrong with the baby. Oh and also the fact that my bladder was about to explode.


The minutes ticked by. Nearly an hour after our scheduled appointment, we still sat in the crowded waiting room. FINALLY a nurse appeared and called my name. I hurried toward her in anticipation. Cheerfully she handed me a large cup filled with ice water. “Here hun. Drink this so we can get the best pictures on the first go round.” I burst into tears. As I sat by my sister trying to drink the water between sniffles, a lady took the chair on the other side of me. She patted my arm and shared that she had lost a baby and yet survived to have others. Gently she assured me that God wouldn’t give me more than I could handle.


I wanted to punch her in the throat.

I didn’t want to lose this baby and have others. And I sure didn’t want to think about the wisdom of God. Have you ever been there? Your world is coming apart and some well meaning soul tries to impart knowledge that doesn’t feel helpful at all. All the Jesus words in the world can’t fix it. And yet I too have tried to comfort others with words of experience. That’s not always best. If the person hurting wants to talk, or cry, or lean on your shoulder, just listen. Keep all that vast wisdom to yourself. Unless of course like me you write a blog. Then you have permission to put on your Jesus goggles and share all the words.

Happy Ending: The baby that was due on July 31 was born safe and healthy on September 29. A miscalculated due date resulted in the doctor’s concern over lack of development. As the stranger-lady in the waiting room predicted, I went on to have another healthy baby two years later. And God did not give me more than I could handle. Looking back I’m glad I did not punch her in the throat.
Well… mostly.

Don’t Forget

We’re sixty-eight. Well… I am. Though he is a few months younger than me, David knows enough to claim my same age. How well he remembers the time we filled out visitor cards at a church in South Carolina. Since I had already turned 25, I had to check the age box marked 24-35. He had not yet had his birthday so he jauntily checked the age box marked 18-24 and made sure I saw it. That day became a day to remember in our young marriage.
For me, remembering anything is getting harder and harder. David and I have a running game of “Who’s that guy?” You know, the one who used to coach the New Orleans Saints. Or who’s the dude who played in Die Hard? Or the rich one who owns Tesla? We also play the game, “Why am I in the kitchen?” That one’s easier because I usually assume I’m there to get a snack. It’s kind of a win win. I can always go back later when I remember why I really went there… and get another snack.
Anyway, we are sixty-eight. And we’ve been around long enough to have been through some hard things. It’s easy to remember the time our kids were small and we were kicked out of church by a jealous preacher. The times we sat with dying parents and held their hand until they passed; the foreclosure on the house we had poured heart and soul into; the loss of our first grandson before he breathed life; the diagnosis of cancer and the horrible season of chemo. Those things are branded on our souls it seems. But what is important to remember is the way the Lord saw us through them. The time He sent unusual strength when my big strong hero keeled over one night; those times the Lord provided more than enough when we had no resources of our own. How He gently held us as we walked through the very shadow of death.
Psalm 78 mentions many occasions when the Lord took great care of His people. Yet they continually forgot His provision, even demanding things they craved. It goes so far as to say, “Despite His wonders, they refused to trust Him.” The Psalm also says that they “grieved Him; they did not remember His power or how He rescued them.”
Let’s not grieve the Lord. Let’s not demand things of Him as if we know best. He appreciates being remembered and He is honored when we trust Him. All our lives He has provided, comforted, and loved us to Himself. Personally, I have to say that I do not understand Him. And I sure don’t know why He puts us through the things He does. But in every part of life, I’ve learned that He will carry me til the end. Then later, looking back on the trouble, I can remember this.
“When they walk through the Valley of Weeping, it will become a place of refreshing springs.” -Psalm 84:6 NLT

Beautiful Joes

Lynna's Wonderful Life

What could he do? It came down to a couple different options. He could break their engagement and tell everybody she’d been unfaithful. Or he could handle things quietly in order to protect her. Being a nice guy he chose option ‘B.’ He would cancel the wedding plans and somehow move on without her.

Suddenly an option was presented to him that he’d never considered.

He could marry her and raise the baby as his own. It would include taking a hit to his reputation and trusting a woman with a very questionable story but…

Matthew 1:19 tells us that Joseph was a good man. Even a good man would struggle with option ‘C.’

Isn’t it remarkable that the King of the universe chose to come to earth as a man so that God’s beautiful plan to buy us back to Himself could be realized? To me it’s interesting that

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All Mine

“Hey man! Don’t be takin’ my donkey!”
That’s what I would’ve said if a couple of strangers came up to my house and started untying the family beast of burden. I mean, how will we get the firewood home, or take grandma to prayer meeting? You can’t just go around taking people’s stuff all willy nilly.
“The Lord needs it.”
Jesus told his friends to say that when He sent them to fetch the donkey. Apparently that’s all it took. The owner had no problem sending his valuable property with strangers. He wasn’t promised a great return on his investment. He wasn’t promised the donkey would be brought back fed and watered… or even returned at all. All he knew was that the Lord needed something he had. If I had a donkey, I can hear myself reasoning…“Sorry guys. It’s the only donkey I’ve got. You’re gonna have to find yourself another mode of transportation. I just made the last payment. Had to finance it for seven years, but finally it’s all mine.”
“What? The Lord needs it? The Lord has everything. Why does He need MY donkey?” I’m afraid me and my donkey would’ve missed the Jesus parade… the only one He ever had. In fact, I think I would’ve missed a lot of things.
I don’t believe I would’ve climbed a tree to get a better look. People would surely laugh at a grown woman perched in a tree. I wouldn’t have called Him up for a night time meeting so He could answer my questions either. What would the neighbors think? I doubt I would have given my lunch to Him when everyone realized it was time to eat and there was no food. What good would my little pitiful sack lunch do? And I KNOW I would not have stepped out of a perfectly good boat to go traipsing across the choppy sea. Who would take such a risk?
Not me.
In fact, everything is just fine the way it is. So Lord, I’m here for You… right here in my cozy house, with plenty to eat, and my nice warm bed, surrounded by things and people I love, with my precious donkey safely tied outside.
Hmmm… Sounds like a parade off in the distance. I wonder what I’m missing.

Knock Knock

I have two sisters who are twins. Not with me, with each other. Otherwise I guess we’d be triplets. Anyway, they are nearly four years younger than me. Unlike me they are still very active. They play Pickleball regularly. Both of them still get outside and walk often. They have card playing buddies and get together with them for tournaments and such. Best of all they still teach Bible classes and love their students. Tamra teaches elementary boys in her church while Janice brings weekly studies to ladies of advanced wisdom. Oh how I love them both. They make me laugh and think and think about laughing. Though we share the common thread of sisterhood, we are very different. While they enjoy people and love a good party, or fellowship as the church folks say, I tend to be a homebody. Please don’t make me go. My favorite plans are cancelled plans. I don’t even own a welcome mat because I don’t want to be a hypocrite. Annyyywayyy…
There is a running joke between us sisters about three old women who live together. These ladies live a confused life, much like my own. The other day we were trying to remember how the joke goes but couldn’t get it right. If that wasn’t so sad, it would be funny. Eventually sister Tamra texted it to us. It goes something like this.
Three elderly ladies lived together. One was upstairs and called down in a panic. “Somebody come help! I’ve got one foot in the tub and I can’t remember if I was getting in or out.” The second lady headed upstairs to help when suddenly she stopped on the staircase. “Oh no! I can’t remember if I was going up the stairs or down!” The third lady who was sitting at the dining table shook her head and commented. “I hope I never get that forgetful. Knock on wood. Wait… was that the front door or the back?”
So when Tamra sent me the text, I replied: “Since I can’t get in or out of the tub by myself, and I sure can’t be climbing no steps, can I be the one at the table? Knock on wood. Hang on. There’s somebody at the door.”
I have no idea where I was headed with this story. I guess the moral of it is to enjoy life no matter the season. Maybe even laugh, or think, or think about laughing while we still can.
Knock on wood.
“In the multitude of my thoughts within me, Thy comforts delight my soul.” -Psalm 94:19

Inept

I’m kind of clumsy when it comes to social graces. Like Don Rickles on the Andy Griffith Show, I’m rather inept. To me, people are scary… down right intimidating. However, for twenty years I worked at the front office of a small school. All day long I dealt with people. I was a little bit good at that. I think because I could help them quickly and they’d be on their way without too many words. If I had to make a phone call, I learned to practice what I would say beforehand. Even now, I do the same. Like last week I needed to check on strawberry plants at the local nursery. In my head, I had the questions ready but when a gruff old dude answered, my words came out “blah blah blahder berrydo have you some?” Also “what is the time of which you shall be closed?” I sounded like Yoda but not as intelligent. Maybe that’s why I write.
Annyyywayyy…
It turns out I’m not real savvy with the technology talk either. Someone was trying to call while I was listening to a Marco message from Permaculture Daughter. I thought I could just hit the orange button that popped up to see who was calling. But somehow I got Google assistant who said, “Try saying, ‘Remind me to take out the garbage.'” So I hit that button trying to get rid of her since my cell was still ringing and Marco was still playing. Of course Google Lady said, “Okay! I will remind you at nine o’clock tonight to take out your garbage.” She seemed so pleased to help that I hated to disappoint her. Without practicing, gently I said, “No Google Lady. Do NOT remind me about the garbage to be out at nine o’clock.”
Bless her heart. I think she was trying her best, but she informed me in her very-pleased-to-be-of-service voice. “Okay! I will remind you NOT to take out the garbage at nine o’clock.” So I gave up on her and hurried to answer my incoming call. But alas. They were gone. So I continued the tour of my daughter’s backyard garden on Marco. At least I’m savvy enough to send her a well-deserved thumbs up, heart AND happy face. I’m sure she was impressed. Plus! No words were harmed in the process.
Sadly, the call I missed was something from a desperate prince who needs money. I’ll have to catch up with him later. Maybe I’ll just text him so I can plan my words. I sure don’t want to insult the royalty which is surely him by misspeaking. But first, I might ought to take a nap. I have a call scheduled past my bedtime to remind me NOT to take out the trash.
Lord help me!
“May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight O Lord my Strength and my Redeemer.” -Psalm 19:14

We have three grown daughters scattered about making their little corners of the world better. During a recent weekend the one living nearby was at a beach retreat with ladies from her church. I checked the weather app and was happy to see she was enjoying 73 degrees and sunshine. Wow. How perfect. Our middle daughter had plans to visit the farm of a friend who is into Permaculture… whatever the heck that is. I had to Goggle it. She too had great weather for the Permaculturing adventure. Woohoo!
However, as I checked the weather for our poor firstborn living in the Midwest, she was experiencing something called “frozen fog.” I have never heard of such a thing. I wondered if she were to drive through it, would it scratch her car.
That can’t be good.
Later that day I decided to make homemade banana pudding. You know, the kind mama made by cooking egg yolks. Since the local daughter has a gold mine in her backyard [she raises chickens and therefore has eggs] we have a generous portion of the motherlode. After adding four yolks, a little flour and sugar to a warm pot on the stove, I stepped away to grab the milk. Literally two steps to the fridge and two steps back. Of course there’s no telling how long I peered into the coldbox trying to remember why I was there. Upon returning to the stove I discovered darkness hovered upon the face of the deep. I snatched the pot from the flame but it was eternally too late. Scorched globs of gunk greeted me and I knew.
That would not be good.
So I started over. Different pot, fresh ingredients, lower temp and constant stirring would surely lend a good result. Mama would be proud. Later after it cooled and thickened, I relished the sweet pudding over bananas while I watched the birds outside my window. Naturally I dribbled pudding on the reading glasses hooked in the front of my shirt. As I tried to remove it, the pudding smeared all over the left lens. Okay, so I may have licked it off. But even after dousing my glasses in water, things were still foggy. But at least it was not frozen fog. Because that would surely not be good.
Ahhh sweet Saturday! A day filled with sunshine, scorched pudding and fog. I’ve come to realize; even with the good, the bad and the ugly… my life is pretty good. It’s hard sometimes to recognize just how good we have it. Scripture says it like this.
“For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.” -1 Corinthians 13:12
Soon the fog will lift. Pain will disappear and the truth will be evident. In the grand scope of things, life really is pretty darn good.

Big Ol’ Bucket

We used to have the best doctor. When David’s A1C registered high, she gave him a plan to lower it. Of course the plan came with a stern warning about his consumption of grits and other Southern manna. But her advice worked. Even better, she treated him like a son and praised his efforts each time he had bloodwork. She was so encouraging that his blood pressure, which usually shot through the roof like a rocket during a visit, came down to somewhat normal. But then she committed the unpardonable.
Our beloved Mrs. Caroline Adams retired. Dang encouraging grandma. Oh how we miss her. Life will never be the same.
As you surely know by now, I am a delicate flower. Currently I’m going through another health issue on top of the mystery illness I deal with. Of course the older I get the more the crazy symptoms pile on. In fact I told the Lord this morning that I am tired of asking for help and getting none. I decided to just quit asking. Then the story in the Daily Bread devotional spoke of the eerie quiet in a Russian orphanage where the babies learn not to cry because they know that no help will come. What a terribly sad commentary. Just as I finished reading the article the Lord reminded me of this verse. “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in Your bottle.” -Psalm 56:8
Apparently Somebody does care.
Then I wondered how large that bottle must be. Since I’m a big ol’ crybaby, the Lord probably uses a five gallon bucket… or three. So let’s do this.
The next time we get to wondering if anybody cares at all, let’s practice this. Let’s go ahead and cry out to the Lord and know He loves us enough to collect all our tears. His Son also cried out. He even wondered why God had forsaken Him.
I bet His bucket is even bigger than mine.

Winter Hope

Don’t you love seeing daffodils this time of year? Around our house they seem to be popping up everywhere. My neighbor has three large flowerbeds loaded with them. So pretty. Their big ol’ heads nod at the cars passing by like “Look over here! Winter won’t last forever! Hitch up your britches and face this passing season.”
At least that’s what I hear. But I’m a few bulbs short of a full flowerbed.

In our yard we can count on daffodils popping up first in the woods to the back of the lot, then in various places around the house. This year a few rogues sprouted in the middle of the grass in the front yard. We’ve lived here a long time and those have never been there before. I guess they washed in from some random place and decided to bloom where they were NOT planted. There’s bound to be a lesson in there somewhere… though at the moment I can’t think of what it might be. I just know that each morning when I open the front curtains, their presence brings me joy.
Last night just before bedtime we flipped past the news. Generally speaking, I don’t watch it. But this caught my attention. Those who’ve studied Biblical prophecy have known for years that in the end times, right about when Jesus is ready to return, Russia and China will become allies.
Guess what was on the news. Yep. It was the first time I had ever heard of those two countries getting together as a possible superpower. Apparently the world is changing and there is not a lot I can do about it. The way I see it there are two options. I can wring my hands and cry out to anyone who will listen that the sky is falling. OR I can look to the One Who actually controls what’s going on and trust Him.
Today, as I open the curtains to see the daffodils nodding back at me, I rest. Though it is winter and the news forecast is bleak, there is hope for this season. I will continue to walk with the One Who has held my hand throughout my entire life. With His love He has calmed all my fears.
Do you know the Lord enough to trust Him?
It might be time.

Pointy Finger

Did you ever have the pleasure of meeting my mom-in-law Nina? She was feisty, funny, and fierce. If one of us did something she considered socially unacceptable, she’d purse her lips trying not to comment. But she’d point her old crooked finger at us with a warning. Personally, I witnessed the wrath of the pointy finger on many occasions. Usually it was accompanied by a twinkle in her eye because she also had a great sense of humor.
For example, back in the days before internet, she had to phone in the info for the kids’ sermon she’d be giving at Trinity Baptist. One week the person at the newspaper misunderstood. Instead of printing ‘by Nina Clark” it read “by nine o’clock.” So naturally we had a t-shirt made for her with 9 O’CLOCK printed across the front in big bold letters. She SAID she couldn’t wear it because it would “bend her hair” if she pulled it across her head. I remember thinking that hair wasn’t going anywhere with all that AquaNet in place. Apparently she could read minds because that was one of the many times I was the recipient of the accusatory finger. There was no accompanying eye twinkle.
Do you recall the time Jesus used His finger to write in the dust? No wait. You’re not as old as me. Let me tell you about it. The story is found in John 8.
Some very self-righteous men who had the law memorized and followed it religiously brought a woman before Him. How embarrassing to be caught in sin then shoved in front of the public. It would be bad enough to be videoed over-eating at the Golden Corral. But her sin was considered pretty scandalous.
Instead of pointing at her with condemnation or even just a stern warning, Jesus knelt in the dirt and used His finger to write. It’s a mystery even now what He wrote. The story goes that one by one her accusers left… from the oldest to the youngest. Makes you wonder what in the world the Lord wrote in the dust. Oh how I wish I could have been there to get the scoop on those guys. I can just imagine how the poor woman felt as she stood there waiting for the other shoe to drop; or in her case a stone to be hurled. But instead of condemnation, she received mercy, with gentle instruction. We tend to hear only the end. Like thunder from heaven it sounds like “GO AND SIN NO MORE YOU FILTHY ANIMAL!” As a preacher friend of ours says, “Four out of five folks think God is mad at them.”
I could be wrong. I mean it’s happened before. But it seems to me in the context of the story, Jesus let the woman know that He wasn’t there to condemn her. I think gently He gave her a taste of what her life could be without the sinful lifestyle. I think she left that day with a fresh start.
Romans 2:4 reminds us that “It’s the goodness of God that leads us to repentance.” Oh what a concept! To enter the presence of God covered in shame but to leave clothed in grace. That’s the true message of the cross.
No pointy fingers.

Uncommon Sense

On a rare day of sunshine in early February 2023, my beloved and I enjoyed time on the back deck. David built a fire, … well… he turned the knob to light the gas flame in our firepit. The wind was chilly so I wrapped up like a mummy. We settled in to enjoy the great outdoors. We might be old, but there’s no shortage of adventure at the Clark house. Being Saturday, it was a busy day for overhead traffic. Small planes from our local airport circled often. We wondered if it was practice day for would-be aviators, or if they just got a kick out of seeing old people point and wave like they were in a parade.
Later that day we heard of the “weather balloon” which drifted off course. No big deal… except it had lost its way from China. Hmmm…
Reports came in that it had been sighted over much of the continental US, including areas over several nuclear sites. Logic would tell us that a live video feed likely streamed back to China with clear and accurate pictures of our “weather.” I wondered if I would be part of the surveillance footage. As they reviewed the live feed, I imagine the conversation went something like this.
“What is big aqua blob by firepit? Dangerous?”
“No. Just old woman in bathrobe. Got it on sale $17.99 with coupon on Amazon. She barely waddle; no big threat. But keep eye on man. Alexa say he spoke of shooting weather balloon down.”
A few hours later, somewhere off the coast of the great state of South Carolina, a couple good ol’ boys assess the situation.
“Hey Bubba, hold my beer.”
BOOM!
And the footage ends.
Sorry China. While we appreciate your keen interest in weather, we don’t actually trust you. And though politicians assure us that all is well, we don’t trust them either. Thankfully our great country is still filled with good ol’ boys from sea to shining sea who possess a strong thread of common sense. Of the rest I can hear my daddy ask, “Ain’tcha got no common?”
I’m afraid the weather balloon has revealed the answer to this burning question.
But while the jury is still out, let’s think on this:
“Be still in the presence of the LORD, and wait patiently for Him to act. Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes.” -Psalm 37:7
That dear friends is uncommon sense.

Just yesterday I graduated from high school. David and I took our new ten speed bikes to the beach and rode for miles. Never once did I think of the consequences of forgetting sunscreen on the tops of my legs. Well… until that night when I couldn’t sleep for the pounding of my pulse through my broiled thighs.
You know, I never planned to get old. Yet here I am, 49 years later and surprisingly…mature. So many things I want to do but can’t anymore. When did this happen? I shouldn’t be surprised. The Lord has been gently telling me for quite a while now that things would not remain the same as they were in my youth. And even though I have sense enough to apply 946 SPF sunscreen, I no longer have the strength to ride a bike on the beach.
Heavy sigh.
But look at this! Psalm 92:14 is speaking of those who love the Lord and seek to serve Him.
“Even in old age they will still produce fruit; they will remain vital and green.”
I may not look vital… or green… or even able to produce a significant amount of fruit. But according to the Word of God, He hasn’t given up on me yet. In fact I think he kinda favors old people. Some of those who were used to show off His power were waaay past their prime. Look at Abraham and Sarah; and Elizabeth and Zechariah. Both produced sons in their old age. Side note: I gave David an anniversary gift in a bag that had baby clothes on the outside. I didn’t notice what was on it, okay? But he sure did. “Are you trying to tell me something?” he asked. We got a good laugh out of that but only because it was such a ridiculous thought. That’s probably how the old couples above felt, only the joke was on them. Apparently the Lord has a great sense of humor. Or maybe… He was telling future generations that He likes using old people to accomplish His great purposes.
Folks like me.
Maybe you too. Are you feeling a little past your usefulness? May the Lord give you strength to share a little fruit with those around you today. God knows you still have a lot to give.

Just a Thought

My mom was not the nurturing sort. She tended to be a no-nonsense kind of gal. She was so smart and capable especially about practical things. Though she had great respect for the Lord, I began to notice a warmth in her relationship with Him when I was away at college. She would write long letters about important things; like how to bake a turkey for Thanksgiving; with reminders to remove the giblet bag before baking. Huh. Who knew? One of those letters in her neat flowing script included this verse. “In the multitude of my thoughts within me, Thy comforts delight my soul.” -Psalm 94:19. It was the first time I remember her quoting Scripture. But that verse became so dear to me later in life, especially regarding my mother. You see, eventually she lost the ability to reason.
As I mentioned, she was a very smart, meticulous individual… until she wasn’t. We started noticing changes in her behavior that were so opposite of her personality. Only two months after the first episode, she lost her life to a rare brain disease. I can’t tell you what that single verse in Psalm 94 meant to me, though she had shared it thirty years earlier.
“In the multitude of my thoughts within me, Thy comforts delight my soul.”
I’m so glad God’s truth never fails. His comfort and peace ushered her into His presence, where she will never be confused or frightened again. In fact, it’s good to think on those comforts every day. “For God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and love and a sound mind.” -2 Timothy 1:7
May the Lord encourage your heart as you think on Him today.


Dear Sweet Lord, sometimes it feels as if the world around me hast gone completely crazy… and therefore so have I. So many thoughts and fears pound on my heart. Only You can offer the comfort I need. Please Father, I ask that You lift my thinking even to the point of delight in You. Perhaps infuse enough joy to bring others along. Please turn the crashing waves of fear into a peaceful river flowing from Your throne. In You alone I place my trust. Amen

I hope you’ve had fun on the Nehemiah Bus. I know. I wish it had been a ’67 Camaro too. Here’s a little list to help us remember things to pray for our churches and families. Maybe print it out and stick it in your Bible to bring to the Lord as you pray. What if we continued to pray for one of these per day, as in number 1 on the 1st of each month etc.? I wonder if God might be pleased with that?

  1. Growth; Expand our territory
  2. Blessing and wisdom like never before
  3. Success so great it impresses the lost
  4. Favor in our communities
  5. Our Leadership: great ideas for reaching others
  6. Your service, your life, your work to be an offering of praise
  7. Encouragement and positive speech
  8. Victory against evil
  9. Strength in the work
  10. Financial wisdom & blessing; generous giving
  11. Great harvest of souls
  12. Greater love for the Lord and others
  13. Protection against evil
  14. God’s wisdom and guidance
  15. Time management
  16. Successful testimony in our community
  17. Forgiveness & love for each other
  18. Faithfulness in little and large things
  19. Equipping of our people
  20. Creativity and resources
  21. Numbers; Multiply us for His glory
  22. Care for each other
  23. Steadfastness
  24. Honorable, generous giving
  25. Leadership- protection, blessings & strength
  26. Strong relationship with the Lord
  27. Joy & strength
  28. Protection for our church
  29. Intentional, thankful remembering
  30. Future and hope*
    “For I know the plans I have for you says the LORD. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen!” Jeremiah 29:11

May God sweetly bless each of you as you continue to pray with purpose and anticipation!

Nehemiah 8:13 tells us that the spiritual leaders and the family leaders got together to go over God’s Word in greater detail, kinda like life group but without the pizza. While studying, they discovered that the Lord had introduced a special family time of camping out. They were to go up in the hills, and drag back some branches. They are told what kinds of trees to take from. Then they were to make these into shelters for their families to live in the great outdoors for a whole week each year; sort of a stick house that would be built on top of the flat roof of their regular house. This was to remind them of years ago when God delivered their ancestors from slavery in Egypt, and they made temporary homes. So I’m guessing they would sit with the children, in their homemade shelters, maybe watching the sunset or stars and telling the story of their relatives. Who knew that God is the Inventor of Staycation?

I can imagine that their children were much like ours saying, “Tell us the part about the frogs! Eewwww! Where is Egypt anyway? Tell us the part about the death angel! Tell us about the Red Sea opening up and the walls of water they walked between. Could they see the fishes?”

Do our children know where we came from? Do they know any stories of miracles God has done in our lives? Do they ever say, “Tell us about the time we had no money for school clothes and God brought the lady by with the bag of clothes that fit us just right!” “Tell us about the time you and mommy prayed for food in college and someone left a meal on your doorstep.” “Remember the time we locked our keys in the car and the policeman stopped to help us?”

Intentional thankful remembering; God is very honored by it. It helps us recall what He’s brought us through. It gives us hope that the future will be just fine, because He is in it.

Today, think of some things God has brought you & your family through. Maybe take a little time to talk about how the Lord has blessed you. The next time you bring a need to the Lord, write it in your Bible and put the date beside it. You’ll be surprised at all you recall next year at this time. His care is worth remembering!

Lord, strengthen us today to remember and rejoice in You. Thank you for all You’ve done, and all You are about to do through us and our beloved church. Forgive us for forgetting. Help us be more intentional about remembering. Remind us to say “Thank You!” to You and to those around us often, because it is important to You.

More: Nehemiah 9- The people recount their deliverance from Egypt

Psalm 103:2 “Praise the Lord, I tell myself, and never forget the good things He does for me!”

Hebrews 6:10 “For God is not unfair. He will not forget how hard you have worked for Him and how you have shown your love to Him by caring for other Christians, as you still do.”

Nehemiah 8: 10-12- Very loosely paraphrased:

PARTY TIME!!! Break out the paper plates, not those flimsy, use 3 or 4, and hope the beans don’t leak through and run down your elbow kind. Buy the sturdy ones and the heavy cutlery. Everyone bring a covered dish, or two or three just to make sure there’s plenty! Something yummy like your grandma would’ve made. Don’t forget the sweat tea! And real fried chicken- crispy on the outside and juicy in the middle! Macaroni and cheese so thick you have to bang the side of the pan to get it off the serving spoon. While you’re at it churn up some ice cream for on top of the hot cobbler. Yummmm………..!

Nothing says celebrate like great food! They had worked so hard. Then came the worship. Next was repentance. Then thanksgiving. Now PAR-TAAY!

Hard work; Sacrifice; Giving; God’s Word; Worship; Repentance; Thanksgiving; Sharing; Preparing; Planning; Food; Fellowship; Joy; Strength; all because some people got together and cared about what God wanted, and prayed.

It’s a picture of us and our churches too!

If you’re in any church or close relationship very long, you know there will be short comings. If you hang tough and stay strong, you will experience the joy of family done well. Something about weathering storms together always draws us closer to each other. And we are definitely better together!

Dear God, please hold our church safely in Your everlasting arms. Carry us when we have no strength. Give us great joy in You. Help us to love each other so much that You are blessed. But when we get weary, and You know that we will, help us love You way more than any petty grievance that would separate us from each other. Thank You so much for the wonderful joy of knowing You, and for all the folks in our sweet church!

More:

“Always be joyful. Keep on praying. No matter what happens, always be thankful, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. Do not stifle the Holy Spirit. Do not scoff at prophecies, but test everything that is said. Hold on to what is good. Keep away from every kind of evil.” -1 Thess. 5:16-22

One of my favorite passages of all times, Nehemiah 8:10-12 says “Go and celebrate with a feast of choice foods and sweet drinks, and share gifts of food with people who have nothing prepared. This is a sacred day before our Lord. Don’t be dejected and sad, for the joy of the LORD is your strength! And the Levites too, quieted the people telling them, ‘Hush! Don’t weep! For this is a sacred day.’ So the people went away to eat and drink at a festive meal, to share gifts of food, and to celebrate with great joy because they had heard God’s words and understood them.”

As Soloman says in Ecclesiastes 3, there is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven…. A time to tear down, a time to rebuild; A time to cry and a time to laugh; A time to grieve and a time to dance. Hard junk; Good junk; Sad stuff; Happy stuff; Days to hurt; Days to boogie… Joy is much sweeter AFTER the sorrow.

Some well-meaning Christians have the idea that we are to live in giddy oblivion, somehow mindlessly skipping through trials with a happy face. Could it be that God knows we are living in a real world, with real heartache? Do you imagine that He is aware of how hard life is?

Yesterday, when I was using the verse about calling Him Abba, Father, I went to BibleGateway.com to find the reference. It was interesting to see that Jesus, when praying in the garden, that the cross and all its shame would somehow disappear, called His Father “Abba.” He was as close to Him then as ever. Yet He knew our sin would be laid on His back on the cross. Did He go skipping up Golgotha? Scripture says that as He prayed in the garden, His sweat was like great drops of blood. What anguish of soul He experienced.

Look at Hebrews 12:2 KJV- Speaking of Jesus it says, “Who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.” He DESPISED the shame. However, for the joy to come, He endured the cross. What’s even more incredible is that saving ME is part of the joy to come. Amazing!

Is it God’s will that we always be happy? Sorry. Should we at least pretend? Nope. Here’s the scoop. Life is hard. But God is good. And no matter how heavy the crap storm we are caught in, there is a joy set before us. We may despise the circumstances, but Heaven is waiting. It is THAT joy that is our strength; the wonderful assurance that no matter what we go through here, it is temporary! Are your eyes fixed on Jesus, the One Who has been here and done this? There’s your joy and your strength. You can make it. He will carry you through the nights of weeping and deliver you to a joyous new morning!

Dear Lord today, we ask for joy. We ask for real understanding of what You’ve done for us. We ask that You remind us continually today that You are in charge and nothing enters our lives that You don’t allow. Make us strong for You. Make our church strong enough to share that joy with others. Thank You for Your great sacrifice at Calvary, because You love us that much!

More: Mark 14:36; Hebrews 12:1,2; Psalm 30:5

Yesterday we noticed in Nehemiah 8:9 that as the people heard the Word of God they were weeping. It seems that as the Word was read and explained, they understood God’s desires toward them. Maybe they understood His love. Maybe they realized their sinfulness. Maybe they were overwhelmed by His provision and care, especially in light of all He had just accomplished through them.

Hebrews 4:12 says, “The Word of God is full of living power. It is sharper than the sharpest knife, cutting deep into our innermost thoughts and desires. It exposes us for what we really are.” WOW. God’s Word is so powerful! It will reveal to us exactly what God wants us to know and do and feel. It will show us the junk we need to be rid of, and the stuff we need to hang onto to use for His glory. Then we can have a Psalm 32 experience:

“Oh, what joy for those whose rebellion is forgiven, whose sin is put out of sight! Yes, what joy for those whose record the LORD has cleared of sin, whose lives are lived in complete honesty! Verse 8: “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.”

Do you ever struggle with knowing the will of God? What to do, what to do? These verses offer a key to understanding. Give it up. Confess and get rid of whatever the Word reveals is blocking your friendship with your beloved Father. Draw so near that it is not a strain to call Him “Abba,” Daddy. There is nothing worth hanging onto at the expense of losing your closeness with Him. He longs to bless you. But sometimes we are just too far away to hear His voice, His sweet invitation to dinner, His gentle reminder that He loves us like the son or daughter we are.

We were invited to our former pastor’s home for the week-end. They had moved to another state and we had kinda lost touch with these once very close friends. I really didn’t want to go. Don’t tell anyone, but I snore like a freight train. It’s so loud that I am afraid that those people they interview after a tornado that say with that deep hick accent, “It sounded jes like a frate trane!!!” actually did not experience a tornado. They probably just live within a two mile radius of me. Aannnyyyyway… we went for our visit. We had been going through so many trials, I had just about shut down emotionally; stuff too hard to recount here. Our beloved friends got us talking. They comforted us and listened without judgment or advice. They just took care of us and fed us some really good food. We came away wondering why we had ever lost touch. Why had I dreaded the trip? Why did I wait so long? They helped bear this awful load and lifted us back to the land of the living. My joy was restored!

The Lord is looking forward to lightening your load, and restoring your joy, if you let Him. James 4:8 reminds me to draw close to Him & He will draw close to me! Why in the world would I put it off?

Prayer for today: Dear sweet Abba Father, strengthen us to look daily in Your Word, so we can clearly see Your BEST pathway for our lives. Point out anything that is blocking our friendship with You. Draw us so close that we experience the deepest love we have ever known. We want to be the best we can be for You.

More: Psalm 32; Hebrews 4:12-16; Romans 12:1,2; Romans 8:15

Nehemiah 7: 73 says it was mid-Autumn when the Israelites settled into their towns, and homes. With their huge building project completed, they had a request. They asked Ezra the scribe to bring out the Book of the Law of Moses. So on or about October 8, all the people assembled while he read aloud to them. Neh. 8:3 says all the people paid close attention. IT’S A MIRACLE! ALL THE PEOPLE PAID CLOSE ATTENTION! Had I been there, I am afraid I would have ruined that verse. Sometimes my mind feels like one of those super balls, except for the super part. It bounces from thing to thing until I forget the topic at hand. If we are ever talking, and I do not seem to be paying attention, please forgive me. I am so sorry. I really do care about you. What’s your name again?

Back to the story: When they saw him open the Word of God, they all rose to their feet. Respect? Custom? Maybe it was anticipation. It’s not like they had Bibles on their coffee tables, and laptops like we do. They had to pay close attention and hear what the scribe was reading out loud to them. And apparently they heard, because verse 6 describes their reaction. They shouted “Amen! Amen!” and lifted their hands toward heaven. Then they bowed down and worshiped the LORD with their faces to the ground. Verse 9 speaks of them weeping as they listened to the Word.

What worship! Hearing God’s Word prompted a beautiful heartfelt response to the Lord. Then the Levites, whose job it was to assist the scribes, read some more and, verse 8, “clearly explained the meaning of what was being read, helping the people understand each passage.” Sound like anyone you know? Who helps you understand God’s Word? Who helps you worship?

Today, our specific prayer is for those who help us worship; for those who clearly explain the Word of God. It is so rare anymore to find those who actually know enough Scripture and doctrine to be skillful and clear in that regard. Do you realize how blessed we are to have wise leadership? Praise God!

Lord, bless, protect, and equip those who put so much time and study into leading us in worship & in teaching us well. Guard their hearts and keep them from sin. Pour out Your most abundant strength and blessing on each of them and their families. And help us to take good care of them as they face the struggles of everyday junk. Thank You so much dear Lord, for each one. Amen! Amen!

More: Isaiah 50:4; Psalm 119:18; Psalm 78:72; 2 Timothy 2:23-26

Back to Nehemiah 7:70. The Lord gives us another list of numbers and people. “Some of the family leaders gave gifts for the work.” Then he tells who gave what. Gifts ranged from 19 pounds of gold, which sounds huge, until you get to the 1.3 metric tons given. What beautiful generosity! The Lord also gives details of those who gave useful things like basins and robes for the priests. Cool. This little paragraph, verses 70-72, looks almost like an “Oh, by the way, some people gave.” It came so naturally.

We attended a revival meeting in Charlotte one time when we were so poor that there was nothing in our pockets. And there sure wasn’t anything in the checkbook. The renowned evangelist bellowed from up front, “As the ushers come by, if they notice you don’t put anything in the offering, they will assume you have nothing and they will hand you something to give!” I could have literally crawled under the pew. I was almost sick on my stomach with worry as the ushers approached us. The dude in the beautiful suit had no idea what we were going through. Kinda makes me bitter just recalling the event. People have a way of tainting our hearts when it comes to giving.

Scripture speaks to us about money in a different tone. The Lord already knows what we have, and what we don’t. Remember the story of the little widow who dropped in her last coin? Jesus was so pleased to point her out to His friends, because He knew how poor she was. At that time in history, rich people were assumed to be granted immediate access to Heaven and favor with God. In the story of the rich young ruler, who went away sorrowful, Jesus says, “Sure is hard for the rich to enter the kingdom.” The disciples say, “Well if the rich can’t enter, who can?” It’s then that Jesus points out that the ones who give up houses, friends, riches, etc. are the ones rewarded a hundred times more!

In the story of the guys given money to invest for their boss, the reminder at the end says, “Faithful in little things, ruler over many.” What is the little thing? It’s money. Money is such a big thing to us. It gets us stuff. To the Lord though, it’s a little thing.

“…ruler over many.” Ruler where? What’s He talking about? Do you think He saves us so we can float on clouds? I’m not well versed on prophesy. But I do know He speaks often of the Kingdom. Even in the Lord’s prayer, He tells us to ask for it to come. Maybe we’ll be rulers there? Just a thought.

Money; it’s a test of faithfulness; a trust monitor; an opportunity to bless; a proof of our love; a way to build His kingdom; a tool to reach others. And of course you are familiar with the verse that reveals that the “Love of $$ is the root of all kinds of evil.” So it sounds like we need to pay attention to what is important, lest we end up on the wrong side of money. Some gave a bunch, some gave less, but the people in Nehemiah’s day were wise enough to recognize God’s faithfulness in rebuilding their lives and homes. And they returned a blessing to Him. Are we there yet?

Dear Lord, keep us from turning our hearts off when we are prompted to give. Help us think of money like You do… “such a tiny offering, compared to Calvary.” Help us to know how to use all You have blessed us with to honor You. Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done.
More: Luke 18:18-30; 1 Timothy 6:10,17-19; Malachi 3:10; Luke19:11-27; Luke 21:1-4

My husband’s mom is one of the sweetest, funniest, most determined people I have ever met. When her son & I married, she hugged me and called me her “other daughter,” stating matter of fact, that “daughter-in-law” was not a term that fit our relationship. How kind. And she has never treated me less than her very own daughter. Her hugs are like those of her son. She wraps me in her arms and locks down so tightly that I am left breathless; partly because I am overwhelmed with being loved so much, and partly because she is squeezing the life out of me. How rare are hugs like that?

We were in the family car between the funeral home and the cemetery on the way to bury her husband. As we drove by the Krispy Kreme, she noticed the “HOT NOW” light was on. She suggested to the driver that we lead the funeral procession through the drive through. There was no disrespect to her husband of over 50 years. He was certainly used to her off-beat humor. It was her way of making us feel better.

Did I mention that she is stubborn? That is actually an understatement. Because she is in her eighties, we worry that she will do something that will hurt herself, since she doesn’t know she is too old to climb in the attic or down into the creek. She has at least enough wisdom to ask someone to come “watch her” while she puts a ladder on the creek bank so she can climb back up after situating the rocks so that water won’t pool. One spring, her son asked her several times not to climb her rickety attic stairs to retrieve seasonal items. We noticed one day, that Easter had been taken up, and summer was upon us in the decorating sense. So he went over while she was gone and put screws into the attic door so that she could not get the steps down. On the string hanging from the door, he attached a note saying, “Pull all you want. They are not coming down. Call me if you need something.” He is a lot like his mom.

She told us one day, that her favorite word in life is steadfast. She says in that word is expressed all she strives to be. And yes she is, steadfast. Throughout her life of 86 years so far, she has always been faithful, steady, strong, loving, but unwavering on the things that matter. And funny trumps stubborn any day! She goes to a contemporary church on Saturday night. If the band is especially good, they get the OK sign with a little wink that says, “Well done!” Then on Sunday mornings, she attends her traditional church and enjoys their fine choir. She loves both. I respect so much that she is wise enough to understand that we are not in competition. And she never lets age, or the opinions of others hold her back!

You may feel that because of your age, you do not have anything to give. YES YOU DO! YOU MATTER TO THE BODY OF CHRIST! Put your unique background, experience, and expertise to work for Him! And again, someone really needs to hear your story!

Lord, help us look at people like You do, each one having great worth, no matter their stage in life. Help us, no matter our age, health, or background, to realize that You have a job for us to do. Strengthen us to be steadfast, and to faithfully carry out our part in Your great plan!

More: Psalm 92:14; Job 42:12; Isaiah 46:4; Jeremiah 29:11

1 Corinthians 15:58 KJV- “Be ye steadfast, unmovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord; forasmuch as ye know that your labor is not in vain in the Lord.”

PS: Our beloved Nina remained steadfast until she walked right into the arms of her Savior. Though she is no longer my neighbor, I will always think of her as one of my favorite people. She taught me so much about life and love. I miss her every day.

So, what’s your story? Where have you been? When was the first time you realized that you couldn’t be good enough to earn Heaven? Who helped you understand that you needed a Savior, Someone to cover the unsightly details of your life when you stand before a holy God?

Let me give you a little peek into my story. I was brought up in church, but didn’t get the whole “You need a Savior” business. I figured I was decent enough. Once when we were headed home from church, we passed the Baptist parking lot. They were gettin’ outa Dodge, and we nearly got run over. My dad said, with his dry humor, “You have ta watch out for them Baptist. They think they know where they’re going when they die!” I never dreamed it was true. Who could know such a thing?

One night, my boyfriend asked me to a youth meeting at a friend’s home. Lame, I thought. Oh well, there’s nothing better to do on a Thursday night. So sitting on a carpet square, singing “Give me unction in my gumption, let me function, function, function,” and … all together now, “Give me wax on my board, keep me surfin’ for the Lord…”, I understood for the first time that I actually needed Jesus to stand for me before His holy Father. The youth pastor, with a gentleness I had never heard, explained 1st John 5:13, and I knew for the first time that I could know… just because I asked Him to save me. So I did. While guitars played, and some dude thumped a cord hooked to a pole on a washtub, I raised my hand to say that, yes, I am trusting. I want to be Yours dear Lord. And with that, I became his daughter forever.

Thank the good Lord, my then boyfriend, later became my now husband, and we have skipped happily through life together ever since! … Well except for the skipping part. So anyway, are you willing to tell your story? Someone needs to hear it. The section in Nehemiah we covered yesterday gave a few stories in all those numbers. That’s the interesting part. You have a story and you are loved. The Lord is honored when we tell what He has brought us through. And, it helps us know He will get us through whatever comes next, because we are His. Consider telling or writing your story this week. You’ll be surprised how it will help you speak to others about the Lord. Today, ask the Lord how to use your unique background to praise Him.

Lord, strengthen me to be honest about my past. I bring my hurts, and victories, to You, and ask You to turn them into praise. Strengthen me to continue my story for Your glory.

More: 1 John 5:13; John 20:31; Titus 3:5,6

“Let the redeemed of the Lord say so!” –Psalm 107:1 KJV

“Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory He will give us later. For all creation is waiting eagerly for that future day when God will reveal who His children really are!” -Romans 8:18,19

Day 21: Numbered

Yesterday we talked about God giving us ideas. Today let’s look at Nehemiah 7: 5 -73. The idea that God gave him was to make a list. Lists are great! I love lists. They help keep me on task. They remind me of what’s important. Lists are our friends.

The list in this passage is a list of families. It is also a record of how many men were returned from exile. Listed are those from the family of Beth-azmaveth with a mere 42, to the clan of Pahath-moab, with 2,818 [I bet they drew names at Hanukkah instead of buying gifts for everyone; cause you know you have to cut back somewhere]. Looks like God is interested in numbers. Maybe it’s because each number is a person; and each person has a story; and each story needs to be told; because each life has a purpose.

Numbers matter. When I get my checking statement, I tear it open to see if we have won “Beat the Bank” this month. Just kidding. We can’t play that anymore since we have entered the age of suck that money out of your account as soon as you swipe the card. Yep. Numbers determine if we get to swipe our card some more… or not.

In our family, on my husband’s side, there are 41 in the immediate family. Most of us eat lunch together every other Sunday. And a bunch of these bring girlfriends and boyfriends. I look up sometimes and think, “Do I know you?” My beloved mother-in-law has hosted lunch like this for longer than the 40 years I’ve been in the family. When they line up to fix plates, she says without fail, “Here comes the thundering herd!” When you’re preparing lunch, numbers matter. In fact, I can’t think of a place where numbers don’t matter, especially when they represent people.

Prayer for today: Lord God, the One Who shows us continually that You love details, bless our church with numbers. Not just bodies in chairs. Please bless our church with more salvations and more souls committed to serving and loving You. And as our numbers grow, strengthen each of us to take care of the ones You bring to us. Help no one fall through the cracks unloved and unnoticed. Because You love every single soul.
More: Acts 2:41-47; Matthew 10: 30,31; Matthew 18:12-14

I love muscle cars. No, I mean I REALLY love muscle cars. The low rumble of a powerful engine makes my heart pound. If we pass a cool old car, my husband knows to slow down so I can gawk sufficiently. I literally have to wipe the drool off my chin. You see, he had a ’67 Camaro when we were dating. When he added mag wheels, wide Formula One Superstock tires with white letters, and jacked up the back with air shocks…..oh, be still my heart! So I had the idea about ten or so years ago to bring back the old body style of the great muscle cars, and market them with today’s comfort. As great as it was to ride in that Camaro, it was no fun to spend 17 hours in an un-airconditioned bucket seated gas guzzler traveling back and forth to south Florida in the 70’s. We did improve it with an eight track player, so that was nice…. Except we had to crank up the volume to near deafening levels since the windows were down as we traveled at warp speed up I- 77 for a quick college break. So, anyway, have you seen the new Challenger? Now that’s a true throwback. They’ve got a couple different ones at the Dodge dealership on Jake Alexander. You talk about lust of the eye…. And that was MY idea!

Not sure if I can even get my heart back on track now. Nehemiah says in chapter 7:5, “So my God gave me the idea…” He walked close enough to God to recognize when an idea was from Him. Can we do that? What if we got creative, really creative, and asked the most creative One of all, “Lord, give us great ideas.”? What if our church did stuff that no one else is doing? What if we…. Can you think of something really cool to fill in the blank? I can. I have an idea I’ve been praying about for right at a year now, something someone I really respect threw out at me. In the meantime, I’m praying for the resources, keeping an idea file, praying, thinking, bouncing ideas off my family, praying, dreaming a little… I hope this works out. And it’s something that I really believe will bring honor to the Lord in a whole new way.
So the prayer of the day is, “Lord, give us creative thinking when it comes to ministry. Help us bless You in a whole new way. Give us resources to reach out to those who have never been loved. Help us to know what that looks like, and to do an awesome job for You!”

More: Romans 12:2; 11-13

Isaiah 43:18- “But forget all that. It is nothing compared to what I am going to do; for I am about to do a brand-new thing. See, I have already begun!

Isaiah 64:3-5- “When You came down long ago, You did awesome things beyond our highest expectations. And oh, how the mountains quaked! For since the world began, no ear has heard, and no eye has seen a God like You, Who works for those who wait for Him! You welcome those who cheerfully do good, who follow Godly ways.”

By the way, I know you are wondering what became of the Camaro. My sweetheart was coming home from his job as a security guard in the middle of a rainy night and crashed it into the side of a brand new Caddy. The little Jewish lady that pulled out in front of him nearly had a heart attack when he jumped out of his car in his uniform with a gun on his hip. We got $750 from our insurance. They kept our car and our new eight track player. And I have been bitter ever since.

Day 19: Equipped

I’ve been thinking about a word I saw in Scripture, and praying it for my husband and me. You see, we’ve just let go of a lot of security and left jobs we had at the same school for the past twenty years. Yep. We are that crazy. Anyway, he was a middle school teacher [math, Bible, & culinary] and I was the school secretary. And we really loved it. But the Lord kept nudging us to step out of the boat and do a little wave walking.

A while back I heard a teaching series through the book of Nehemiah. The pastor said. “Don’t allow fear to be bigger than your God.” It was at that point that I had real confirmation that God wanted us to do something more. That was in January. So in March, when it was time to sign contracts for the next year, God gave us both peace and assurance that we needed to be done there. And we let go.

One day I was reading and came across the word equip. It’s contained in a prayer at the end of Hebrews. Chapter 13:20 says, “And now, may the God of peace, Who brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, equip you with all you need for doing His will.” Since we are definitely old dogs in need of new tricks, equipping by God sounds like a great request. So this has become my prayer for us. Today, I saw an interesting commentary on that word. The writer, Dennis Fisher, says it is the same word used in several contexts. Stay with me, this is pretty cool. Ephesians 4:12 uses it to describe what pastors and teachers do for us as they bring us God’s Word. Galatians 6:1 speaks of restoring [equipping] a fallen brother. And my favorite is in Matthew 4:21. Mending [nets] is the same word.

God is so practical. He never asks us to do anything without equipping us to do it. And if we fall, and odds are pretty good we will, He reaches out His hand for us. And when we need mending, He’ll do that too. People may think we are not worth the effort, but God never gives up on us. And the coolest part of all is that the power He uses to equip us is the same power He used to RAISE CHRIST FROM THE DEAD! Ephesians 1:19-“I pray that you will begin to understand the incredible greatness of His power for us who believe Him. This is the same mighty power that raised Christ from the dead!” Strong stuff! Makes me think we can do anything He asks!

So the prayer for today is for equipping. Lord, strengthen us with the tools we need to build Your church. Put in our hearts what You want us to do. Then give us the knowhow, stamina, and understanding to do the things You want done. Help us remember that we cannot rely on ourselves. Then strengthen us to stay so close to You, that when the waves get big, we instantly call to you like Peter did when he stepped out on the water. Hold us by Your strong and mighty right hand! Equip us to do great things we’ve never done before!

More: Psalm 18:16-20; Matthew 14:22-33; Isaiah 43:2; 2 Timothy 3:16-17

Isaiah 48:17- “The LORD, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel says, I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is good and leads you along the paths you should follow. Oh that you had listened to my commands! Then you would have had peace flowing like a gentle river and righteousness rolling like waves.”

Do you have a Charlie in your church? Charlie in our church faithfully made coffee for every service. And he’d be on a mower in the heat of summer, taking care of the church yard, no matter how bad his health got. We had a week-end message where no volunteers were used, except for kids club, just to show how much we need each other. Charlie was all in a tither because he did not want us going without coffee.

Nehemiah 7:2 says “I gave the responsibility of governing Jerusalem to my brother Hanani,… for he was a faithful man who feared God more than most.”

Faithful. Do you know someone like that, always faithful, no matter what? Some people you can just count on. Like the one who sets up tables and cleans up after a meeting; others work on making the sound the best it can be; some keep the nursery or work with kids club; [there’s a golden crown in Heaven for those brave souls!] Some practice hard to make the music just right; and then there are those who smile a big ol’ smile and greet you like you are somebody. You always feel better when they’re around! Are you looking for your name in that list? Consider it there! Your church is full of faithful people just like you.

Where was Charlie before church? If I remember correctly, he was outside one day at his house. Not a lot of good going on in his life. A faithful man stopped by and talked to him about mowing the church yard… and about eternity. From then on Charlie was the Lord’s, and ours. When he died, I remember the sadness and grief and the realization he would no longer be puttering around fixing things. Since Charlie is with the Lord now, I wonder if they sit and chat about our church. The book of Job shows a scene from Heaven where God asks Satan, “Have you noticed my servant Job: He is the finest man in all the earth- a man of complete integrity. He fears God and will have nothing to do with evil.” And then the crud really did hit the fan. But God knew that it would. And He knew that He would still have bragging rights on His boy Job in the end.

Once when we were going through a particularly rough patch, I said to my husband, “Why in the world do you think the Lord is allowing us to go through all this at once?” He replied something I will never forget. “If the only reason is so God can brag on us a little, that is enough.” What a beautiful image, God bragging on us. I wonder if He speaks with those gone before us, proud of the people at our church. I wonder if He says to Charlie, “Don’t worry. Scott’s making coffee.”

Today our simple prayer is that God will keep us faithful. Although it is a simple prayer, it is vital to our ministry. Pray for us all to be [as the verse says] “faithful, fearing God more than most.”

More: Proverbs 28:20; Matthew 25:20-22; Job 1

A verse I think of as my Charlie verse is Acts 4:13 that says in part, “for they could see that they were ordinary men with no special training in the Scriptures. They also recognized them as men who had been with Jesus.”

It was easy to see that Charlie had been with Jesus.

[10 years ago] I just spoke to our daughter Stephanie, who is a pastor’s wife in Kentucky. Their church is a small traditional Southern Baptist one. Stephanie and her husband Jeff, are determined to help Spottsville Baptist Church be the best it can be. [Spottsville is a literal description.] She is very creative and has formed the CAMELS: Creative Arts Ministry Enrichment League of Spottsville. She must be creative to come up with a name like that. Steph is good at recognizing creativity in others and putting it to good use. Some of the Camels sing in praise groups, some cater meals, some paint back drops, some act in dramas. It has become such a success that they often put on events for much larger churches. And they have a really good time. Last year they attended a creative arts workshop in a large church and realized they were already doing the stuff they paid a lot of money to go and learn. So this year, they are putting on their own seminar to teach other churches how to use their talents well. And the crud has hit the fan… for at least two weeks now. Church people whining, and getting their feelings hurt; a former ministry letting Steph know her short comings; Secret sisters without presents; Copiers suddenly breaking down; T-shirts that take longer to print than advertised; Demon possessed computers, you name it. She’s dealt with it. Hmmmmm….. Wonder what’s going on……. Spiritual warfare perhaps?

Nehemiah 6:17 -19 is a short paragraph summing up the experience of doing a work while influential people try to use their clout to slow or ruin a project. There’s family connection, political sway, and the last line makes me laugh. “They kept telling me what a wonderful man Tobiah was, and then they told him everything I said. And Tobiah sent many threatening letters to intimidate me.”

They keep saying , “Don’t worry, we’re with you brother!” Then somehow there’s still an underlying current of discontent. Observation: Intimidation is not a spiritual fruit. Neither is sarcasm, clout, guilt, or politics. But Satan will use anything he can to fight against God’s work. As I write this, I do not personally know of such going on. But by the time we have been praying for our churches for seventeen days, I am sure some will have their collective butts on their shoulders. That, dear friend, is a very heavy load. I know. I have borne that load before. And with all the love I have, I am telling you, “Let it go!” Do NOT allow yourself to be on the side with Tobiah.

Have you ever been hiking or checking the garden and someone says, “Watch for snakes!”? Sends a chill doesn’t it? Today that person is me. I don’t know who is ticked off, what makes them grumble, but Satan does. Stand your ground against him. Don’t be a part of the whining team. Be a part of the winning team. God knows the battle we are in and He will greatly reward your efforts.

Today’s prayer: Dear Sweet Lord of Heaven, thank You for understanding when we are hurt. Strengthen us to recognize the battle we are in and commit all things to You. Strengthen us against sin and help us watch for snakes. And Lord, please influence those who have power and clout and family connection to use those things for Your glory to enhance Your ministry. And help us love each other.

More: Proverbs 6:16 – A list of things God hates

Job 42:7-16 – Job prays for his friends who were a bad influence

Esther 4:13-17 –Queen Esther recognizes and uses her position for God’s people, even though it could cost her her life.

What does our reputation as a church in the community look like? Yesterday’s verse from Neh. 6:16 says, “They realized that this work had been done with the help of our God!” Wow! What a testimony. Sure hope that can be said of us!

Today, let’s look at Psalm 40. It starts in the pit of despair. Have you ever been there? Ever beg God to pull you out? You are not alone. “I waited patiently for the LORD to help me, and He turned to me and heard my cry.” Then verses 2 and 3 tell that the Lord pulls us out of despair and sets our feet on solid ground. He steadies us as we walk along. Then He gives us a new song to sing, a song of praise! Do you notice the progression?

Despair- a natural response to hard situations

Patient waiting- an unnatural response; our normal prayer is “Hey Lord, could you get a move on? Things are not going according to my plans.”

Prayer- a Godly response: “Lord, I can’t fix this. Please intervene.”

Deliverance from despair: “He turned to me & heard my cry.”

Steady Walk- “Thy will, not mine. Please hold my hand.”

Praise- “Thank You Lord! You are God and I am not. Praise Your sweet holy Name!”

Verse 4- “Many will see what the Lord has done and be ASTOUNDED!” The world is watching us. What are we telling them? They know about the hard stuff. Bad news always travels fast. They are looking to see how we respond to trouble. Are we any different than them? When our despair is turned to praise, they are astounded. In fact, it causes a supernatural response in them as well. Look at Psalm 40: 3b.

“They will put their trust in the LORD!” There it is! Our victory over despair is for a reason. The world needs to see Jesus. They have not seen Him before. They don’t know what to look for. They look for signs and the face of Jesus miraculously etched into a potato chip. But one thing the world does recognize is joy. Not some fake, “I’m a Christian and I skip through trouble with a happy face” joy. True, real, life is hard but God is wise, joy.

Can we rest in His care so much that it shows?

Today, our prayer is summed up in Psalm 90: 15-17: “Give us gladness in proportion to our former misery!…and may the Lord our God show us His approval and make our efforts successful.”

Lord, strengthen us with joy and peace in the middle of our despair. Keep us real as we deal with trouble. Help us rest in Your perfect plan for our lives. And we humbly ask for success, so that the world can look at us and see the work is done with the help of the Lord our God. Success in building Your kingdom! Success in reaching the unreachable! Success in changing lives. Success for Your glory!”

Praise God, by His grace, we can walk steadily through hard times and our efforts will successfully attract the lost to Him.

S’more: Psalm 40; Psalm 90:15-17; Isaiah 43:2

Can I take the time to tell you about my mom? Her name was Claudia. She was strong and very smart. She was meticulous with cleanliness, details, efficient with the day to day. She loved her family. Like me, she had three daughters and three sons by marriage, and one love from the time they were very young & newlywed. Beautiful white wavy hair. Great smile. She worked at Happy Day Care in Landis, NC for around 30 years. I think she potty trained the bulk of Rowan County. I didn’t have all the time I wanted with her.

As I mentioned on day twelve, we lost her to a horrible disease. Technically called Crutchfield-Jacob’s it is actually Mad Cow disease. Yes. Here in the US. She never travelled farther than the beaches of North and South Carolina. It is so ironic how she died. She was very careful with hers and daddy’s health. They walked 3 miles every morning and many evenings as well. We grew up on vegetables, fresh or frozen from a huge garden. Meat was for Sundays and holidays. They seldom ate out. She washed bananas before peeling in case there would be a lurking germ. Who does that? She would work cross word puzzles with an ink pen. No need to erase. I’d look at those words and think, “Woman, you are from China Grove. How do you even know what that means?” She was the youngest seventy two I have ever met. So energetic and strong, she could work circles around me. But her time here was up. God took her. She experienced at that point the ultimate healing, and for the very first time, the truest, sweetest love of a Father.

Time. We do not know how long we have to complete this mission of ours to reach all we can for Christ. But every day is valuable because it involves eternal souls who do not hear about the One Who loves them. Every day someone gives up. Every day someone loses their life to tragedy. Just today, one of my favorite radio hosts died unexpectedly. Darren, of the morning show on WBFJ brought encouragement into our home daily. And the front page of the Post has a smiling picture of a handsome young man only 20 years old, who was tragically killed on the job. His little family, wife and 1 year old daughter, had just moved here. Had anyone invited them to church? Is anyone there to take them a meal or love them through this horrible time? I still grieve the loss of my mom and I had nearly 50 years with her. People need us. Time is of the essence. Every moment matters. “Only a minute, but eternity is in it.”

Nehemiah’s project was completed in record breaking time. 52 days! Unbelievable! Pray for God’s timing. Pray for a smooth completion of all projects. Pray for the world to look on and be amazed at what God is doing on our behalf. Let them look at us as in Neh. 6:16- “They realized that this work had been done with the help of our God!” Your prayers will make a difference.

More: Ephesians 5:15-17 Colossians 4:5 Nehemiah 6:15-16 Ps 90:12

Have you ever gotten bad advice? It sounded like a good idea at the time, but somehow things didn’t go as planned.

“We could remodel that old house ourselves and save a lot of money.”

“Put some icy hot on your forehead. Your sinus infection will clear right up.”

“Here, you lead the conga-line. Let me hold the video camera.”

“Let’s get Zumba. We’ll just dance that poundage off.”

Makes you wonder who we hang out with doesn’t it.

Poor ol’ Nehemiah tries to do a good deed in chapter 6, verse10. He goes to visit a shut-in, who apparently had a godly reputation as a prophet. That’s where he got some bad advice. Thankfully Nehemiah recognized it for what it was: another trap. Some really good looking people, can tell us some really smart sounding stuff, and we can fall face first into a vat of “sure wish I’d’ve seen that coming!”

So how can we recognize truth? You are already thinking it. Jesus is Truth. His Word is Truth. Pure, wise, works in all situations, Truth. And it works in regular normal stuff. However, when there are many, many details to hammer out, and many, many decisions to make, the odds of getting it ALL right are much slimmer. And then you have all the good looking, godly sounding people standing around making wise observations. Stuff like, “When God closes a door He opens a window.” I always wonder why, if God slams a door in my face, why would He want me to squeeze my big ol’ hind quarters through a window?” Maybe He does. Maybe He’s teaching me persistence or some other virtue. Or maybe He wants me to put those Zumba lessons to good use. See how tricky this can get?

That’s why today’s prayer is for wisdom for those in the decision making roles. James has a couple great passages on wisdom. Chapter 1 talks about going through trials and letting our endurance grow, so we’ll be ready for anything. Verse 5 tells us if we need wisdom, just ask. I think the Lord loves hearing us own up to the fact that we don’t get it. But we are at least wise enough to admit that. And He doesn’t go for a lot of floundering around either. Ask. Step out of the way. Trust.

A verse that comes to mind is “Without faith, it is impossible to please Him.” Hebrews 11:6. The other passage in James regarding wisdom is chapter 3:13-18. If you get a chance read it. Wisdom there is described as pure, peace loving, gentle, willing to yield to others, full of mercy, etc. What it is NOT, is braggadocios, jealous, selfish, etc. So pray. Wisdom is a precious thing and in short supply in this world. Pray today, that we as a church tap into the only Source of true wisdom. Pray for the Lord’s great guidance in every single move, every tiny step, for His glory! He has promised to give it if we ask!

More: James 1; James 3; Hebrews 11:6

There’s a trap set for you. I don’t know what that looks like in your world. In Nehemiah’s it was set for him in the valley of Ono. I’m guessing that’s pronounced, “Oh NO!” Wouldn’t it be cool if everything were labeled by descriptive words, so we knew what we were getting into? “Hey honey. Wanta buy that house on Money Pit Lane, or the one over in Rainbow Valley?” or “Let’s try a vacation at the Shark Pit Villas.” “Where you wanta eat tonight?” “Oh I don’t know, maybe that new place, Hurler’s Grill.”

Somehow Nehemiah knew the invitation would not turn out well. So he stalled. He was even diplomatic. But they persisted. Finally he responded in a voice much like the witch in Princess Bride… “LIAR!!” I love that line. We use it often at family functions. Princess Bride is so deep… so quotable.

Nehemiah called them out as the liars they were and watched his back [and most surely his front as well.] Verse Nine gives the goal of his enemy and ours too. “They were just trying to intimidate us, imagining they could break our resolve and stop the work.” Next line holds the key to his success and ours. “So I prayed for strength to continue the work.”

Today, name your trap. It could be anger, past hurt, secret sin, or something as simple as mine, which is fear. I actually had to go to counseling to figure that out. When I finally named my crippling fear for the sinful choice that it is, my life changed. Now that I recognize the trap, my thought patterns are more deliberately opposite of fear. Do that for yourself, for your family, for the God you love. Name the trap that Satan, uses to hold you captive. Is it pride, criticism, or something you don’t even recognize? I know it took me a long time to realize what was holding me back. Ask the Lord for help. Then pray for strength to continue the work.

God has big plans for His church. Everyone has something to give. I really believe it all starts with prayer. He seems to emphasize that a lot. So let’s do it His way, realizing we cannot accomplish anything without His blessing. So look that old devil in the eye and call him the liar he is the next time he whispers that you don’t matter. Because God really does want to complete His work in you and use you for His glory!

Today Lord, reveal the trap set for me. Give me wisdom to recognize what holds me back. Then strengthen me to avoid anything that would hinder Your plan. Give me strength in You.

More: Philippians 1:6; Romans 12:1,2; Hebrews 12:1,2

Have you ever wished for Cliff Notes of the Bible? Like yesterday when I gave you all that Scripture and you started hearing, “Blah blah blah designer shoes blah blah …” Well, here ya go.

I came across a passage that sums it all up. In Matthew 22: 34-40, Jesus is being questioned by the religious experts of the day. These guys were careful to obey the details of the law down to the length of their sleeves. Trying to trick Him, they asked what He considered to be THE most important law. His reply is well known, but not well practiced. “You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important. Love your neighbor as yourself.” Then He says it.

“All the other commandments and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments.” So here’s the scoop. If we get those two things right, all the other stuff falls into place. The God of details gives us an easy button. Well, at least He narrowed it down to two things. So should I take that job? Can I fulfill Christ’s royal law of love there? No? Then the money is not worth it. Should I work in the yard today? Will I in any way defeat the goal of loving God and loving people? No? Then go for it.

Just a little jump off the Nehemiah bus for today. Because if we bear down on these two things, Christ says we’re good to go. Love God. Love people. And it’s also amazing that He places loving others “equally important” as loving Himself!! Knowing that He is a jealous God and wants us to love Him with every ounce of our being, makes that statement even more astounding!

Can I be real with you? Loving Him and loving people is certainly harder some days than others. I bet you already knew that. Here’s what I prayed. You fill in the blanks where you have been.

Strengthen me Lord to love You so much that I never doubt You again. When people hurt me and You are silent, help me rest in Your Word and believe You when You tell me You love me. When we both lose our jobs, both cars break down, the house has a tax lien, and medical bills mount up, [summer of 1990] help me remember that You love me. When I blow my cool and bless out the person I feel to be responsible for our job loss; when I slam the door so hard the windows are still rattling, [also summer of 1990] help me to know that You still love me. When I lose my strong and beautiful mother because she gets an illness that is so rare that only 3 in one million in the U.S. get it [winter of 2004]; When my very first grandson dies before I hold him in my arms, [summer of 2010] help me to rest in the fact that You love me. And when we come out on the other side of heartache with a stronger understanding of Your great love, help us use that understanding to love people better. Everyone is going through something. Strengthen me, and all of us today, to lighten someone’s load just a little; Because You love me while I am most definitely unlovable.
More: Ephesians 3:14-21; Romans 8:31-39; Matthew 22:34-40