I turned from my reflection in the mirror and thought, “Wow! It HAS been a rough year.” Several bouts with the flu last winter culminated with a 911 call when David keeled over. Shortly after that, both our laptops got viruses, which I think is worse than the flu. Skin cancer for me came next and the resulting surgery where I thought my nose might fall off.
In the meantime, the folks renting our house lost jobs and couldn’t make their payments. We didn’t have the heart to evict them, so eventually the bank foreclosed. Because of that, we had to file chapter seven bankruptcy.
Toward the end of the summer our middle daughter’s husband had a job change and moved their family twelve hundred and eighty one and a half miles away, or eighteen hours and thirty minutes by car if one did not stop for potty breaks. I’m thinking it would take us a bit longer. Shortly after that, David lost his job as part of the support staff due to church finances. Unbelievable!
So we took a little vacation with our youngest daughter’s family to the beach, which had actually already been scheduled. “Good!” we thought. This will give us a much needed break and time to think and pray about next. But while we were there, my beloved David, who has never really been sick much until this year, came down with kidney stones. He spent the bulk of his vacation weekend in the ER or on the couch in the most pain of his life.
But it’s ok! We’re still early in the job search. Well, two months in, but we’ll get one more paycheck. Surely the Lord has better days ahead for us. Thanksgiving won’t be the same with only one of our three daughters in town. But we’ll go there and celebrate the day with her family and look forward to Christmas.
Thanksgiving morning I got up sick. Good grief! As I coughed and sneezed my head off I realized I could not go and infect everyone at the gathering. David jumped in the kitchen and started cooking our part to take over without me. That’s when the defecation hit the oscillation. As the toilet overflowed and filled our bathroom with confirmation that our life really is full of crap, I heard myself mutter to the Lord, “This is NOT funny anymore.”
Once David left, I sat down and had a good cry.
“So Lord, what are You thinking?”
He didn’t answer.
I began to review our past year. I recalled our close friends who lost their daughter. She would have turned thirty on December 1st. I thought of another friend whose husband walked out on her for another woman. Then she lost her job. She’s going through much more than us, but is doing it alone. At least David and I have each other.
Dear God, forgive me.
Thank You for my husband who still loves me, for daughters and son-in-laws who are well and plan to be here with all their children for Christmas. And babies! We waited so long and You answered our prayers for three in the same year! Certainly You are the same God as in 2012! And oh how You’ve provided time after time in our difficulties. David could have died that night when I couldn’t get his response. But You heard my cry as I called Your Name!
God forgive my petty self! You are wise and You are holy! You are only good! You give and You take away! Blessed be Your Name!
So here’s what I’ll do today. I’m asking for You Lord, to end this year with a bang. Would You please bless David with a job so perfect for him that only You could think it up? We don’t care what it looks like to others, just so You get the glory for providing.
“You crown the year with a bountiful harvest; even the hard pathways overflow with abundance.” –Psalm 65:11
We praise You ahead of time, because You are faithful and we know You have a plan!
We love and trust You sweet Lord, evermore!
“You faithfully answer our prayers with awesome deeds, O God our Savior!” –Psalm 65:5
Looking forward to it!